I changed huh?

But why is it always the opposite side?

You think I changed and I'm now a better person,

But I don't think so..

=.="

It's a SAD CHRISTMAS night

Why?
I don't know..
I saw it..
I finally know that although you had been saying you won't forget or put them away,
It's not the truth..
You had put them away..
Do you really love them?

I planned one too..
But you say you couldn't go..
And what now?
Huh?
I'm so tired of all these craps.
Your craps.

Yesterday was FULL..
I'm happy about it..
There're more than 20 customers ordered our Christmas set.
ALthough I need to spent quite some time just to decorate my plate for the desserts,
I'm satisfied.

Today was quite full too..
But guess what?
I ain't happy..
Everything was messy..

And I don't know why,
My mood was completely ruined...
And now here's the 'Queen' again..
YOU'RE DAMN NOISY AND IRRITATING!
WOULD YOU MIND TO SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LET ME REST!?
F*CK!!! F*CK!!!! F*CK!!!!!!
You're NOTHING!
You're a GOLD DIGGER, MONEY SUCKER!
I HATE YOU!
I wonder how did my mum put up with you for so many years!

Today chatted with Daisy about her love stories...
She go on a strict diet and did not drink any cold drink just for her ex..
Now that I think of it,
I did sacrificed a lot..
And I just gave up so easily after what I did for him?
Don't you think it's a bit wasted and it's very stupid and silly??
Well,
I think so!
I did not just spent money!
My effort had all gone to drain..

*yeah! SHUT THE F*CK UP!*


*went to CSSPF for 10 minutes*

Now!
My mood is prettyy gooooddd!
All thanks to Kyouya aka Jess!
I just read her one-shot ff and it's great!
She's really my senior! LOL

Yeah..
I never thought today was such a bad day for me....
And I need some time alone..
It had been some time since I last made it 'rain'..

I'M SO PISSED

Be more considerate!!
If I can get it elsewhere,
I wouldn't had asked you!
Use your brain!
You never changed..
You are still the selfish one...
That's why that incident happened!
It's not my fault,
It's yours!
F*CK YOU!

MY EMPTY HEART IS NOW OCCUPIED BY MY COLLEAGUES.

I feel kinda EMPTY right now..
Yes,
My heart is EMPTY..
Because he don't exist in my heart anymore..

One thing I love about my colleagues here is they're very caring..
Extremely caring!
They treat me like their younger sister,
Although they can't STOP teasing me..
Everything I say and do,
They'll tease me..
They LOVE to see me 'gik dou'..
But they're great companion whenever you're boring!

There's only one fan in the Kitchen,
And they will give me the fan whenever it's my break time..
Because I usually take a short nap when I'm waiting for Daisy's shift to end..
When I lie down and sleep in a not-so-good position,
They'll say "Later your neck will be in pain, don't sleep like this.."..
When I didn't eat,
They'll ask me whether want some food or had I eaten..
When I didn't go back home during break time,
They'll offer me a ride to go out to eat..
They're nice!
Although sometimes really very 'gik sum' when they purposely tease/dicturb me..
Lik Chen is the most self-loving people I ever know!
But he more annoying+funny..
Although he didn't annoy me.
LOL

I just love my colleagues!

THIS POST IS ESPECIALLY FOR ALVISS KONG

I don't know whether did he succeed on suiciding or not,
*went to check*
Well, he succeed..
He suicided on the 9th of December 2010..
Some said 10th...
I just found 'Alviss Kong's Grave' profile.
:(
Alviss Kong is the bravest boy and yet the silliest boy..
He's young, handsome, cute and he's a person that loves HER whole heartedly..
He chose to suicide after 4 months of relationship with the girl was broken..
He loved the girl a lot..
He even left a last note before he died..
We,
Girls,
Need guys like him..
A loving guy..
I don't know why,
But reading his last note just made me cried..
He even took a last picture of him before he died,
And in that picture,
He was crying..

If a girl can make a guy cry,
It means the guy really loves the girl..
I think the girl will feel guilty forever.
And she should remember Alviss forever,
The only man that love her so much till suicide..
I know many of you will say he's stupid+silly+brainless and all kinds of negatives comments.
Those of you who said this,
You guys are a bunch of idiots...
You must had never felt those pain before..
I had faced it for 4 times..
I know how much it hurts.
He had the bravery to kill himself rather than facing the pain is because he really love the girl and he don't want to feel the pain anymore..
Although no one knows what will happen after we died,
But just pray for Alviss..
I found his real facebook profile,
And FYI, you won't be able to add him..
I did tried,
But there's too much friend requests..
It means the profile of ALviss Kong does exist,
But not the person..
You'll also find a lot of his stuff in facebook when you type 'Alviss Kong'
His profile :
http://www.facebook.com/alvissk


Read Hermione's blog.. There's more info and there's his last note and some picture too..
And FYI, the music is a quite sad music,
So it WILL affect your emotion..
Hermione's blog : http://lovehermione.blogspot.com/2010/12/sad-and-wasted.html

There's news that his ex suicide but was rescued at a hospital.. Not sure whether she's alive or not.. Hope she is. Because the reason Alviss suicided was to leave her side and hope she find someone better.. Not asking her to follow him along..

Video At Youtube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DRkuw45rR2g


NEWS:

http://lifeisreallybeautiful.com/malaysia/alviss-kongs-suicide-how-tragic/

A more complete news:

http://joshuaongys.com/2010/12/19-yrs-old-malaysian-alviss-kong-jumped-off-building-committing-suicide-after-leaving-facebook-message/

Too much stress,
I broke down...

Ying's aattitude was even worse!
And poor Yew, he was ordered to do this and that...
Thank god he's BLUR!
Or else,
He would be complaining and whining,
Like me!
LOL

Today was nearly full..
Romm A,B and C had customers,
Table 1-16 had customers too!
Except for table 3..
But that's enought to keep me busy like hell!
I was making 4 teapots of green tea!
Couldn't stop getting Oshiburis and ice and hot green tea..
Although I was incharged of Drink Bar today,
I was forced to go out to take order because NO ONE is free!
We have 7 BIG trays to put those dirty plates..
And 7 trays is NOT ENOUGH!
Couldn't stop washing the cups and the ice-cream cups..
Couldn't even stop and rest for 10 seconds..

Today,
Ah Hong 'confessed' to me..
LMAO!
Isen started the joke first,
Then he followed..
LOL!
He's one kind guy who can't stop playing his phone...
HAHAHAHAHA!!
And he even tried to scare me with the eel!
Luckily I was prepared for it!

That's all for now.
Bye.

ANOTHER UPDATE~

Ah Yew is getting more and more 'smart'!
FINALLY!
His response is damn slow~
We have to be very alert with 'onegai' or the 'dingding'
But he seems to can't hear it!
LOL!
And when we said we need 4 cups of hot green tea,
He took 5 minutes to just POUR it.
Yeah,
He's slow+blur!
But now, he;s a LOOOOOT better!
Thanks a lot to him today!
He helped me out a lot!
And he even manage to make me laugh although I'm freakingly busy~

Today was hectic!
HAHAHAHA
Daisy welcomed a group of customer,
Just as the the customer sat,
Junnie welcomed another pair of customer,
And I gotta welcomed another gang of customer,
They're like coming in every 2 minutes!
Gotta take 3 table's order at one time..
LOL!

1st funny thing:

Lik Chen was busy slicing the salmon and me with Junnie just couldn't stop asking him some questions.. Well, he stopped and answered us.. Then he said "can you both let me finish my sashimi first????" We just laughed at him.. He's a JOKER!


2nd funny thing:

I'm now learning to be the cashier.. So I need to print the list and insert the card and etc etc etc..

Kitchen: *ding! ding!* X3

Me: Wait! Coming! *still busy with cashing~*

20 seconds later:

Kitchen: *ding! ding! ding!*

Me: wait!!!

20 seconds later:

Ah Yew open the 'door' and asked me to hurry up.. And I just said 'WAIT!'. He answered okay..
I'm still busy~~ Seconds later, he popped out and asked me to serve the set.. GAHH!!!!
I just gave up and ask Junnie to do it. LOL!

A lot more funny things happen,
Will tell you guys next time!
BYE!! :D

MY FIRST OBSTACLE AT KIZUNA ONE

I don't get it..
I memorised ALL the dishes names within 3 days,
And I learn how to take order within 5 days,
And I learn how to push the SSM within 7 days.
I can learn all these within a week.
Is there a problem with it?
FYI,
I'm a fast learner..
Those simple name is easy as ABC for me to memorise!

You worked for 1 year,
And you just started to learn to be cashier..
I just worked for 2 weeks,
And the boss WANT me to learn to be cashier..
It's not that I requested it!
It's the boss who wanted it!
And now you envy me?
Well,
Be a fast learner and don't just be with your boyfriend a.k.a the sushi chef!
You can't even pronounce a simple English word properly,
You need to improve yourself!

And Junnie is leaving on the 26th,
That is why the boss want me to learn how to be cashier!
Be a bit more positive thinking will ya?


Yes,
She's mad at me..
She's those cheerful girl!
But today,
She scolded me for informing her 30 SECONDS late about the order cancellation..
Excuse me!
It's just a DAMN 3O SECONDS~

I FEEL LOST

I want to use my holiday time to study.

I want to learn nail arts.

I want to work.



Can I do all these 3 at one time? :(




























I MISS YOU

When I saw my cousin sister used thge mug that you gave me,
Anger started to rise in me..
I did not use it because it was slightly cracked last time when I first used it..
The water that I pour was too hot that the mug cracked..
Ever since that time,
I keep the mug and I never use it.
But I always wanted to use it..
I just love it..

Now,
I realise that you actually still mean a lot to me!
I think you know who you are ;)