3RD DAY AT KIZUNA

As I THOUGHT,
Today is going to be hectic!!
But my first shift was .....
=.=
So quiet!
Not many customers!

But when my second shift came....
There's 4 waitress, 2 waiters..
One of the waiter incharge of the drinks and oshiburi,
So it means there's only one waiter left to serve the food..
The one at the bar is Yew, the one who's serving is Keat.
There;s 6 of us, including the Captain..
And still,
There's too much to do!
People usually multitask,
But we gotta tripletask!
LOL!
I need to serve the oshiburi, refill in room B, and take the dish from the kitchen to serve AT ONE TIME.
So ALL of us,
Were RUSHING here and there!
One funny thing was the Soft Shell Crab was suppossed to be served to table 6,
But Keat miscount one table and serve it to table 5!
It's funny to look at his starting-to-panic face!
Thanks to me,
I rescued him!
And Yew was.... SLOW!
Bartender is the FASTEST people!
But he's like a tortoise!
But can't blame him though..
It's his first time!
hahahah!
FUN FUN FUN!
Although tired like hell!
And did I mention that 6 waitress/waiiter is NOT enough to serve 7 tables at ONE time?
Just imagine how many food they order to keep us busy like shit!

So..

I'm working at Kizuna One now..

HAHAHAH

It's tiring like hell!

I mean you need to stand, serve, walk, refill and repeating all these for 4 hours!

LOL

But it was okay~



The chefs in the kitchen was very funny!

They shout and yell in the kitchen,

But only those who near the place where we put the food onto the tray can hear it..

Few of the funniest jokes were:





1ST JOKE

Eddy: Oi! Do properly la!

Another chef: Sorry lo! No need so fierce gea!!!

Eddy: I'm having period now, can or not!?

Another chef: okay lo!



Everyone just laughed at them.. Eddy and Another Chef is the sushi chef, they're making sushi/temaki/maki at the sushi bar..





2ND JOKE

Chef 1: Fuck you la!

Chef 2: You sure?

Chef 1: Diu..

Chef2: Come, fuck my ass..



*both of them are guy*



I just LOL at them.. All of the chefs are 20++ but their attitude is like 15++!!



I am so impressed by the sushi chefs! Especially Eddy! When he's working, he's serious.. But at some very unexpected times, he'll sing some songs! Some were christmas song and some were japanese song.. HAHA! And his skill of peeling cucumber skin is the best! The skin is so thin that it's almost transparent!



And whenever kitchen start cooking, there'ss be someone who'll come out to the bar and make a report, and everytime, the report is the same thing! "Kitchen had just became Genting"

Means it's very smoky inside..

Ying jie, and Vivian jie is very kind!

Sadly, tomorrow is Vivian jie's last day~ D:

I'll miss her!

Ying jie is dating with the sushi chef!

Not Eddy~~



Gahh!!

I just love it :)

20th of November 2010, Saturday

Went to see Doctor this morning.. Hope I'll be fine soon!

(To Jane: Yeah dear! I'll take care, rest more and drink more water!!

LOLS!

I was late to Parade..

I was longing for MP and Yiwen told me she's there!

BUT!!!

Luckily I wasn't there 'cause "Kangin" was there!

LOL!

Met with Yiwen and Lulu at Ampang Bowling Centre.

Went to book a room after that.

YES, A ROOM!

A K-ROOM!

And we're off to do manicure!

I did French Style(the picture above).. Yes, it is exactly the same as mine.

Usually people use white but I want something differ.

So I chose SILVER .

It's not as good as I expected, but it's nice! I wanna try RED or RED+BLACK next time! XD

RED was my least favourite colour/ Well, I hate RED!

But ever since I become a CASSIOPEIA, my hatred towards RED is fading and now

I LOVE RED!

RED IS NICE!!

And ever since MICKY PARK YOOCHUN bought a RED FERRARI, my love towards RED is growing more and more!

Then we went to Kbox.

It was quite dull at first..

Lulu was kinda shy (for no reason)

Yiwen hadn't got into the singing mood yet.

I was having flu so my voice is ......

But after HEARTBREAKER BY G-DRAGON

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LOXEVd-Z7NE

and 2PM+SNSD'S CABI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xbnI4FgpFDQ

The mood was IMMEDIATELY lighten up!

We went WILD when we sang TIK TOK(KESHA), MY FIRST KISS(KESHA), HOW DO I LIVE(LEANN), MIDUHYO(DBSK), BAD GIRL(B2ST), SECRET(ONE REPUBLIC) and a lot more!

It was fun!

That's all for today!!

LOVE YOU ALL!

Why do you remember some stupid nonsense but not important stuff?
You remember Marcus,
Which I had forgotten long time ago.
Why?!
You don't even remember when's my birthday when you celebrated my birthday with me..
You don't know my favourite colour when I know that your favourite colour is 'zamrud'*last time*
You don't know my favourite subject, which is your least favourite subject.
You don't know anything about me when I know a lot about you!

Now that I let go ALREADY,
You told me you like NO amc girls now.
WHAT THE FUCK MR. LIM?!
Are you fooling around?
Fuck Fuck Fuck!!!
*I just curse around when I got really mad!*
GAHHH!!!!

I really let go already..
I wanted to put you back in my heart and lock you up,
But I'm hesitating now.
Should I?
What if I get hurt again?
What if you like no AMC but you like MGS?? =.=
What if it's all lies?!
I'm such a mess now!
*scream!!!*
I wanna talk to you directly, face-to-face and ask you everything!
What's wrong with you?!
And what's wrong with me?!

I need few days to think and decide whether I should put you back in my heart or not.
And it's hard because I already let go.
And you're a Mr Dumb Dumb!!
So frustrated now..
Gotta watch some Micky Hubby stuff~
To make myself better~
Byebye!

I KNOW IT'S TOO FAST, BUT I'M SORRY MR. MLZR,
IT'S THE END!!! :D
I MAY FEEL A BIT EMPTY NOW BUT
YOU'RE OUT OF MY HEART!!!
:D

I feel uneasy if I don't blog at least once a week!!
I just wanna pour all my feelings out!
Looking at her today and I saw her staring at L...
She's staring at L with so much hatred..
For one second, I thought..
"Am I the only one who just saw that side of her's?"
But I don't really care.
LOL,
Not my business!!

I haven't been thinking about for days!!
Until I saw you online..
And the feeling is here again..
I miss you..
I hate the fact that I gotta let go!!
GAHH!!(Learn this from Jane darl!)
But you know what??
I won't hesitate to let you go..
Not anymore..
Because I had learned a lot from loving you..

You had taught me what friendship is..
You had taught me the way to make myself study despite in a over-stress condition..
You had taught me how to smile when facing hardships..
You had taught me how to appreciate people around me..
You had taught me a lot of things..
You had taught me how to love, forgive and forget..
You had taught me too much..

Maybe you don't realise it..
The amount of I love I gave you was too much..
Did you ever know that I love you even more than Micky??
Of course you don't..
Micky is so important to me that I swear I'll do anything just to know how he's doing now..
But if you're added to the list,
NO DOUBT,
I'll want to know how you're doing first..
No matter what,
You'll come first before Micky..
But not now anymore..
Things had changed..
Micky will be the first person I want to care for..
You??
Maybe after my best-friend list..

Holiday just started and I'm already missing you like hell!!
But no matter what,
I'll say byebye to you..
I'll never love you again..
But remember this..
You're my first..
And whenever you need my help,
Just voice out,
I promise,
I'll help!
And can I say it for the last time before I really let go of you?
I just wanna say this to you..

I LOVE YOU, MLZR.

Damn that Zeen!
LOL
Missed school today.
I tried to go by taking bus..
But the bus just won't come!!!
GAHH!
Even my useless uncle wouldn't wake up and fetch me..

Thousand apologies to Yiwen who always did my parts when I'm absent.
She's an amazing friend!
Glad that I have her!
XD
I wonder how was things going on today..
I hope Lau didn't give her much troubles!

Raining heavily!
Gotta off D:
Byebye,,

I gotta choose a nice date~
What date is the best??
16th of this November??
Hahaha,
Might be!

I just hate people lying to me.
And Yeah,
You can say you're not lying to me or whatsoever,
But there's one thing you never did.
You did not fulfill your promise.
The vow we made is nothing but merely a stupid promise.
Why am I so stupid?

THANK YOU

This post is meant for Lim Zunren.
Who meant a lot to me 2 hours ago,
But now,
He mean NOTHING to me but merely just a normal friend.
Although I know my instinct never fail on me,
But I lied to myself.
I was telling myself that I might be wrong.
I MUST be wrong..
But today...
It had been proven that my instinct is right.

Yesterday,
I thought that maybe..
Just MAYBE..
I can let you stay a bit longer in my life,
In my heart..
But it is proven today that there's no such need.
You don't need my love,
You won't need my love,
Because all you want is someone else's love and attention.
No matter how much I care,
No matter how much I love you,
You'll never know,
You'll never realise,
You'll never return my love..

No matter how long I endure it,
No matter how long I love you,
It is all not worth it.
I had waited for 2 years.
2 damn years!
I had endure all the pain for 2 damn fucking years!
And in the end,
What I get?
MORE FUCKING PAIN!

I wonder,
Why did I fall for you at the first place?
You're not even my type.
You're not handsome.
You don't even have a man's attitude and charm,
You're a useless guy!

I wanna apologise to Yiwen..
I'm sorry for showing my angry look at tuition just now.
That bitch hurted my leg,
And did not sincerely apologise,
And I got even sad and angry when I found out that LZR really like her.
You should understand my feeling.
Sorry.

I had been holding back my tears since I finished my Malay essay..
Few drops of my tears fell when I'm on my way home.
I force myself to eat eventhough I had lost my appetite.
I make myself happy by looking at Micky's stuffs.
But when I came to the wrong thing..
Listen to the wrong song..
I happened to listen to W by JYJ.
And that song just successfully made me cried my heart out.
I really need to cry.
I need to get over it by crying.
After all,
I'm the stupid idiot who loved a dumbo for nothing.
I always hope that there's a time where LZR found my merits.
But despite all the things that I did.
He knows nothing.

I really feel so hurt.
Looking at the person you love speaking to the person he like.
I can't do anything but tp pretend I'm fine and I know nothing.
This time,
I'm really going to let go.
Eventhough I actually planned for a surprise birthday party for you,
I guess now you don't need it anymore.

Maybe it's because I continuously get hurt,
This time I felt nothing.
I mean not really sad.
I think he just make me easier to let go of him..

Lim Zunren,
Thank you for all tha attention and care you had given to me
Thank you for all the adive and time.
Thank you for chatting with me although you're busy.
Thank you for making happy even just by a simple sentence.
Thank you for talking to me.
Thank you for making me feel happy.
Thank you for all the pain you gave me.
Thank you for all the tears that you made me shed.
Thank you for letting me love you.
Thank you for not avoiding me although you know I love you.
Thank you for everything.

And now.
Lim Zunren,
Goodbye.

Class Party Made Me Happy Again!
Thanks To All My Darlings!

Feel so lost and hopeless now.
It's just a damn foilio and it's driving me crazy.
I'd make up my mind,
If I can't finish it today,
I'll pass up on Monday.

The sick feeling is still here with me.
Even my eyes aren't concentrating..
I can barely read any words if I didn't zoom the page.
My throat,
GAHH!
Even if I drink up the whole lake,
I'll still feel damn thirsty!

LZR!!
You idiot!
You coward!
My percentage to forget about you is about to reach 50% ..
And because of your REPLY TO MY STATUS!
I can't do it already!
Why're you always like this?!

Which one is better?
Be honest to teacher and tell her I can't go to the camp because of some personal reason,
Or go to the camp while taking the risk of fainting during the camp?
Commom sense,
Just tell the teacher I can't go.
High fever since yesterday,
But I'll usually be fine after consuming some pills and get some sleep..
But not for this time.
The condition became a lot worse when I woke up this morning..
It's was just 5a.m when I woke up and I thought "great! I can make myself some yummy spaghetti for breakfast!"
Just as I stand to clean myself,
I started to feel dizzy..
I expected it,
So I just ignored it..
I should had just lie in my bed and rest,
But because of my stubborness,
I caused troubles..
I'm a troublemaker,
Isn't it?
I can't make it to school,
And I didn't inform anymore when I promised to go to school.
I'm sorry..
I know some of you won't believe me..
I don't care anymore..
Call me liar, faker, betrayer or whatever,
You'll never understand my situation.
This time is the 3rd time I fainted..
Fainted?!
Yeah, I fainted!
Just as I got up to wash myself,
The dizziness was too much to handle.
I can't see my surrounding properly..
Things were too blurry..
The nest thing I knew was I hit the floor with full force..
And blackout.
It was scary.
The feeling of going-to-faint is scary.
I don't like it.
My grandma made me regain my conciousness..
She keep on calling my name and slightly patting my shoulder..
She asked "What're you doing here?"
I don't know how to answer.
Tell her that I fainted and freak her out?
I just kept quiet and said nothing.
I went back to my room and lie on the bed,
Look at the clock,
It's already 8:20.
Too late for school.
How long I fainted?
Few hours I guess..
I went to see doctor.
He said "Did you eat medicine? and your fever is quite high"
Yeah, the medicine was finished last week and I didn;t get it from him.
Server me right.
He seems to know that I'm going to participate in some outdoor activity..
"As usual, no outdoor activities until I say okay."
My heart jump with joy..
But I'm sad too..
Although I'm so not ready for the camp,
I don't wanna miss it..
And I'm wondering whether can I miss it or not.
Headache!
Gotta off.
Won't online until I feel better.
bye,

I know it's unbelievable that I can do it within 24 hours.
But believe it.
30% of me had let go.
Yeah,
I really tak sampai hati to let go...
Do I have any other choice?
NO..
Perhaps,
letting go is the best solution for me~
I'll try my very extremely best to make sure I completely let go of him..
If I can't...
I won't use the name Zeen in this blog anymore.
I'll change it to Mandy..

The meaning of Zeen is someone who's mean, cruel and cold-blooded.. Perhaps, cunning?
Yeah~
That;s the reason I name myself Zeen..
But in the other hand,
I can't help it but to let myself hurt over and over again,
Just to see someone else happy~
So,
Mandy is the weaker Puisan~
While Zeen is the tougher Puisan~
I know I shouldn't make so many names~
But I just love it!
LOL..

Zeen,
Make sure you can let go of him!
Or else,
You'll have to erase this name forever!
*I really <3 this name! :(

It's just an assumption, but why do I feel so hurt?
Maybe it's because my instinct never fail me.
I hope he's happy.
I wish he's happy.
I want him to be happy.
Although I'm hurting inside.
It's my decision to hide the truth from him.
It's my decision to encourage him to get that girl.
It's all my own decision.
I promised myself to keep my mouth shut no matter what.
I promised myself to wish him all the best and give him my full support.
I might be wrong.
I hope I'm wrong.
I want prove my instinct wrong!
But how?

Maybe Yiwen is right.
Maybe I'm jealous.
I really hope I'm wrong.

But what if I'm right?
I'm good in acting!
I should just act as if nothing happen.
I only need to act once.
Then it'll be holiday.
I really need to let go?
Is it time already?
After 2 years of loving him,
I need to let go?
Seriously,
I don't want to..
I always have him to encourage me when I can't do something right.
I always have him to help me with some problem when I can't confront my friends.
If I let go,
I'll feel so empty..
I know there's nothing that lasts forever.
But can't it last a lil' but longer?

I might tear up later.
I just don't know why I'm so damn hurt!

MICKY MADE ME FEEL BETTER

HOW?

Hahaha,

Just by a simple reply from Facebook!

I'm loving him more and more!

I just can't believe my luck!