Today was the last day of 90-Days Plan.
I joined this Plan since the first day. Time flies!
I've been working as a Herbalife Independent Distributor for almost 4 months already.
It feels. Unbelievable.
Today, Viya went on stage and asked us to close our eyes.
Then she asked "Who think his/her life is really very hard now? Please raise your hand."
I gave it a thought, and yes, I raised my hand.
"Think again. Is your life really so hard? Is everything so hard for you right now?"
I still raise my hand.
Yes, my life is so hard right now.
I've never experience such HARDship before.
It's beyond my imagination.
Yes, I want to change it.
But I'm not desperate enough to make a move.
A move that will change everything.
A move that will make everything better.
My situation is bad.
Bad to the extent where I'm limited to what I can do.
I used to be so free, not bound by anything.
But now, I feel like I'm living in a prison.
Bound by the obstacles.
I want to change. Yes, I want to change so badly.
I keep on praying, wishing for things to get better.
Praying to God, asking for His help to give me strength and hope to go on.
The problem now is, I don't know what I can do to change it.
Whatever I do, comes to no avail.
I want to ask for help.
But what kind of help should I ask for?
Who should I ask?
When Viya asked "Is your life very very hard now?"
I can feel my eyes burning, the tears are coming.
That's how hard my life is.
I can no longer control.
I've let my fears control me.
I've never been like this for the past 18 years.
This, is the first time in my life.
This is a lesson that can't be learned at any College or University.
This is a lesson that is given by God.
I know, if I can go through this, I'll win another battle.
But to me, this looks more like a war.
I've lose some battles, to win this war.
But I don't have the confidence.
Lack of strategies? I don't know.
Support? I have no idea!
I just wish, I'll be given strength and hope to overcome this.
