*Preparing.. Hairstylist was Evelyn, while the make-up was done by Eve*

Grad was fun, of course.

But the price that I had to pay for the fun was too much.

my iPhone was stolen.

It's not that I complain about it because it a iPhone,

It's because of the memories I had inside...

All of it means so so so much to me..

I want it back so badly.

I couldn't sleep well since Friday night because I couldn't stop thinking about the phone.

I WANT IT BACK SO FCUKING BADLY!!

Those memories that I treasure so much,

Just vanished in a second..

It reminds me of how my mother vanished from my life.

It was unbelievable. It was painful.

No matter how much I suffered,

The pain never ends,

From time the time,

I can still feel the heaviness on my chest,

The burden and stress..

I'm sick of people who told me they understand what I'm going through.

YOU.DON'T.UNDERSTAND.AT.ALL.

Apparently, no one really has the heart to dive into the ocean and save me from drowning.

They'll just stand there and celebrate the moment when I'm struggling to survive, and about to die.

Honestly, who cares?

Who ever care for me?

I was only there when you needed my help.

I was only there because no one was there for you.

I was only there when you realised that you can take me for granted.

When did you ever appreciate my presence and not treat me like a toy?

When WILL you treat me as a true friend?

Now that I think of it,

I was really a fool,

I became someone else just to be in your list.

I became someone to please you.

I became someone else because you want me to.

Now,

Why would I continue to fulfill your request when you doesn't worth it, at all?!

I will be who I am supposed to be.

You can't understand what I'm thinking?

ASK!

You don't feel like want to care about me?

THEN DON'T!

Pretending to care for me is very pathetic.

I don't need your sympathy.

I'm in a fcuking fugly mood these days so I advice you not to mess with me.

I don't want to burn anyone around me because of my anger.

To me, everything about it is a burden.

When I was standing before the gate,

I was actually hesitating whether to go out or not.

I WAS HESITATING!

It was a very heavy burden.

In fact,

It's the only thing I wanna get rid.

But I couldn't..