Crying In The Rain

I'll never let you see
The way my broken heart is hurting me
I've got my pride
And I know how to hide
All my sorrow and pain
I'll do my crying in the rain

If I wait for stormy skies
You won't know the rain
From the tears in my eyes
You'll never know that I still love you so
Though the heartaches remain
I'll do my crying in the rain

Raindrops falling from heaven
Could never take away my misery
But since we're not together
I'll wait for stormy weather
To hide these tears
I hope you'll never see

Someday when my crying's done
I'm gonna wear a smile
And walk in the sun
I may be a fool but till then
Darling you'll never see me complain
I'll do my crying in the rain

Raindrops falling from heaven
Could never take away my misery
But since we're not together
I'll wait for stormy weather
To hide these tears
I hope you'll never see

Someday when my crying's done
I'm gonna wear a smile
And walk in the sun
I may be a fool but till then
Darling you'll never see me complain
I'll do my crying in the rain

I'll do my crying in the rain x3

by:5566

Now That She's Gone

Girl you know I miss you so
I didn't know you had to go
You've had enough our distance baby
Before I had the chance to say
I'm staying with you
For the rest of my life

Don't keep telling me these words
You don't know how much it hurts
And I'll promise you eternity
If you promise your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was

I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I'm a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

Don't keep telling me these words
You don't how much it hurts
And I'll promise you eternity
If you promise your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was

I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without it's flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I'm a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

Wooh~ Wooh~ Yeah
I know I know
Baby I know I'm a fool
And I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I'm a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

This is our song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us in this song

by: JJ Lin

It Was A Wrong Decision

I shouldn't have went back There..
It is the worst decision I've ever made..
But I don't think that it's my fault,
because he wasn't supposed to be in Friday, but Tuesday..
So he SHOULDN'T HAVE CHANGED!!!

He like my new look, he says- it's nice..
And he wants me tell him that he also looks better already..
Actually he still looks the same,
So I just said- you look more matured..
And I asked why he wants to know about the changes of his look so much?

He replied- because "I've a new target.." he said..
My smile fade away, my heart feels like it's...
Broken into million of pieces,
Crushed by the planet Mars,
Thousands of needles trying to kill me in my heart...

I'm just so sad.. I think it's repay..
I have to repay for what I did in the past..
But is it true?
I hope it's not..

He says that his new target is from AMC,
the slut school (sorry to say so, but I'm just telling the facts)
It just so pain.. I'm so happy 5 minutes ago,
and now I'm in a broken heart condition..

My friend YL said I should tell him that I still love him,
But i refuse to do so..
It's because it will only make things harder to handle..
He will have to speak carefully to me again,
I prefer his natural way, not the 'careful' way..

Just a minutes ago, he just signed in(MSN)
I feel like chatting with him,
But I know it will only hurt me more..

I wonder how #1 and #2 being so optimistic..
They can accept that the guy they love is in love with some other girl..
Well, I can accept that too, but it's hurt..
And #1 and #2 doesn't feel anything,
As if it's none of their business..

It's none of my business too, but I just can't act like nothing just happen,
although I can act very well in front of him..
I'll just have to bear this pain..
There's nothing else I can do..
But wishing him all the best and good luck chasing for his 1st girlfriend..
I hope the girl will accept a nerd like him..

All the best and gambateh!!

If one day, you're reading my blog now,
I don't want to know that you read..
And there's no need for you to be sorry..
I don't need people's sympathize..

I'm Scared Out Of My Wits

I'm finally back to There..
To the only place where we can meet..

I was told that you won't in Friday class, it was quite a relief to me,
Because I'm not ready to meet you, yet...
I'm so relax all the time until....

I suddenly saw you walk by outside the door..
I'm freaking shock!!
I hope I was mistaken, but I know that it's you..
I'm sure it's you.. 100% SURE,
And i say 'f**k' cause I'm too shocked..
But at the same time, I'm incredibly happy..

When you entered, you take glance at me.. you're like-
"Oh, there's a new girl here today.."
You seems like don't recognize me anymore.. Haha
I'm not surprised even if you don't recognize me, because I look so different since the last time you saw me..

The me from the past-
Tie my hair 24 hours, not so tall(but still tall), my hair is not straightened, I didn't wear spectacle..
That was the me from the past..

The me now-
Straightened my hair, wear a full frame spectacle, my clothes become more simple and nice, and I'm much taller..

And I can COVER my real expression using my fake look..
I was smiling,
Once you entered, I changed my self from happy to normal..
From a smile to no smile..
It's some sort of acting skill..

Can you see the difference??
When your spy#1 told you that I'm back, then you realized that that is me.. haha
It's such an odd thing for you to smile to me in class..
It;d never happened before, until Friday..

I am so damn happy!!!
It's like my dream comes true!!
WHOA!!
You're hi-ing to me..
You look still the same to me..
Still not that good looking, still that 'perasan', still good in your studies,
You're just the same!!

I feel so happy the whole night,
I thought you'll text me something like-
I'm surprised to see you Here tonight..

But nothing happens, in fact..
I'm the one who texted you but no replies from you...

I hope you're not avoiding from me though you're my ex-crush(for you)

But for me, you're NOT my ex-crush..
You're STILL my crush NOW..
I thought my love for you'd fade away since so long I didn't meet you..
But it's still here, deep inside my heart..
It doesn't want to just go away like that,
Because I love You, not like..

It's not a puppy love at all...
IT IS NOT!!
I will be waiting for every Friday, same as I'm waiting for you..

Waiting to see you..
And my 'miss' for you can be lighten more and more~

At the end, I'm happy and glad.. And I appreciated the time..

My Life

I just feel like talking about my life...
If any if you wanna know me better, you'd better understand my life first..

In year 2002, my father leave the family..
My mother work so hard to raise up my brother and sister..

In year 2006, my mother passed away..
Then, the family starts to fall apart..
I was sent to stay with my uncle, away from my hometown..
Luckily, my sister was there with me too...
After my mother deceased, then only I realize how annoying I was last time..
I could beg my mother to buy me a book for hours..
And she'll buy for me in the end.. =)

In year 2007, I moved back to my hometown after i quarreled with my uncle over a small matter,
and i believe till now, my sister is still putting the blame on me..

In year 2008, I'm finally having my life as a teen..
In this year, I'd gain 3 best friends..
Then I found out that one of them isn't as what i imagined..
She really hurt my feelings, so i break my relationship with her..,
At the end of this year, I quarreled with another best friend, #2..
Life doesn't seems as great as I imagined..
And this is also the year I'd my first sister..
I'd tell the guy i like- I like him
I'd become braver..

In year 2009, we're friends again.. I mean #2..
Though at first, it's hard gain back the trust, but we made it some how..
This year also happen many things, which i couldn't believe..
I fall a sick every month..
I quarrel with my siblings..
And slapped hard by my brother..
A guy walk around my house totally naked (my brother's house mate)
And I was nearly... not rape by him..
Can be said as he sexually disturbed me..
I move to my grandparents house immediately(in 1 day)
I'm screwed the whole year...
Last but not least, the guy I love hurts me a lot!!

Well, the happy stuff is-
I'd won a competition,
I'd my best friend back,
I'd a post in my society,
The guy I love turns out to be quite nice to me.. But in the end.. He still hurts my feeling..

so.. If you wanna be close to me, You'd better study me well, before everything it's too late..
And things might turn out very ugly.....

18th January 2010

It may be another boring day for you (the readers), but it's quite an interesting day for me..
Hahaha..
It's my sister's birthday..
Well, I'd 3 surprises for her that day..
The first one-
#2 can go to the destination!! Haha
She's so 'gik dou' until her face turn red.. Really funny if you'd saw her expression..

The second one-
I'd bought her favourite cake from S.R..
And stupid me, I'd bought the cake without making it clear that i want a 1 kg cake...

The third one-
I'd bought a present for her.. Its a mechanical pencil..
With her name carved on it.. It's so nice..
Even I, myself, like it so much..

And she said that it's one of her happiest birthday.. Well, who knows beside than herself?
And she likes my present the most...
I'm so so so glad and+happy to hear that..

This year, I'll try to give those who are important to me the best birthday..
Especially my brother, sister, #1, #2 and of course to my friends that i LOVE and RESPECT

Something Different

My posts before this is all about the meaning of life or something like that..
And none of those seems like a happy moment for me.. So..

Today's Post Is Going To Be Something Different!
I'm pretty sure not much of you(readers) know who am I..
Only my Best Friend#1, Best Friend #2 and Muiz knows..
I guess you don't know any of these.. Haha
Today was really a happy day in class, with #2..
I just can't stop laughing
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
That's what happen to me..
Then I spend some time with #1..
And we really looks like couple.. BUT WE'RE NOT!!
She have her's, and I have mine..
Muiz is also a funny little thing...
She's kind of afraid of my friend.. Haha..
Muiz, no need to be scared of her gea..
Jiex won't let #1 bully you one.. Lols
It's a happy day for me, and so to #1, #2 and Muiz..

Tomorrow is going to be another tiring and fun day too!!

Before I leave, I LOVE YOU GIRLS!! Haha..
You all is one of the best thing that happen in my life..
Sorry if I hurt you all before..
And I'll appreciate it until the last day of my you-know-what..

I Found You

Yesterday was a normal like usual,
nothing special,
and since I'd nothing to do,
I decided to make a fb account,
which almost everyone already had one..
haha..

outdated huh..
I'd been wondering wether you've have a fb account or not..
Then i said to myself-
Stop wandering, idiot!
just type his name and look for him!


But there's something I'm afraid of..
How if there's someone/something in your account that might hurt me.
you know, his gf..
But seriously, "I don't think you have a gf.. Haha"
I typed your name, hoping to see your photo..
And............

I FOUND YOU!!!!
Once I look at your photo,
It feels like all the burden is gone in a second..
Then I realized, how much I miss you
And my love for you now is 2~3 times more than last time..
Maybe it's because I long time din see you, but anyway...
I'll view your profile more.. XD
Because you won't know even if I viewed you for more than a hundred times..
You din change a lot..
You look a bit more matured, maybe you've grown tall a bit..
Haha..
I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY !!!
I wish I could go back there and see you again..
The real you..
But it's not time yet,
You and I have to wait,
I'll have to suffer while waiting,
While you can enjoy while waiting...
Please stay and wait there..
I'll be back, soon...


Note to readers: you might think I'm silly and stupid to wait for someone who's not
worth waiting, but this is MY CHOICE and it's MY DECISION
NO ONE can take control of my world, because THIS IS MY WORLD..
Don't stick your nose in and play with fire, or else
You'll get burn... badly..

Sorry for my rudeness up there, if you don't mind, please leave a comment as you pay a visit to my blog.. thanks, great day!!