I'm Scared Out Of My Wits

I'm finally back to There..
To the only place where we can meet..

I was told that you won't in Friday class, it was quite a relief to me,
Because I'm not ready to meet you, yet...
I'm so relax all the time until....

I suddenly saw you walk by outside the door..
I'm freaking shock!!
I hope I was mistaken, but I know that it's you..
I'm sure it's you.. 100% SURE,
And i say 'f**k' cause I'm too shocked..
But at the same time, I'm incredibly happy..

When you entered, you take glance at me.. you're like-
"Oh, there's a new girl here today.."
You seems like don't recognize me anymore.. Haha
I'm not surprised even if you don't recognize me, because I look so different since the last time you saw me..

The me from the past-
Tie my hair 24 hours, not so tall(but still tall), my hair is not straightened, I didn't wear spectacle..
That was the me from the past..

The me now-
Straightened my hair, wear a full frame spectacle, my clothes become more simple and nice, and I'm much taller..

And I can COVER my real expression using my fake look..
I was smiling,
Once you entered, I changed my self from happy to normal..
From a smile to no smile..
It's some sort of acting skill..

Can you see the difference??
When your spy#1 told you that I'm back, then you realized that that is me.. haha
It's such an odd thing for you to smile to me in class..
It;d never happened before, until Friday..

I am so damn happy!!!
It's like my dream comes true!!
WHOA!!
You're hi-ing to me..
You look still the same to me..
Still not that good looking, still that 'perasan', still good in your studies,
You're just the same!!

I feel so happy the whole night,
I thought you'll text me something like-
I'm surprised to see you Here tonight..

But nothing happens, in fact..
I'm the one who texted you but no replies from you...

I hope you're not avoiding from me though you're my ex-crush(for you)

But for me, you're NOT my ex-crush..
You're STILL my crush NOW..
I thought my love for you'd fade away since so long I didn't meet you..
But it's still here, deep inside my heart..
It doesn't want to just go away like that,
Because I love You, not like..

It's not a puppy love at all...
IT IS NOT!!
I will be waiting for every Friday, same as I'm waiting for you..

Waiting to see you..
And my 'miss' for you can be lighten more and more~

At the end, I'm happy and glad.. And I appreciated the time..