Happiness and Doubts

Our very first getaway. We went to Penang. This is our first holiday together at a different state. The very first thing I like about this is being able to pack both of our clothes in one bag. I just feel this as an act of love.
Its not just couple anymore. It's not just dating. Its trust and comfortability. We're comfortable and we trust each other enough to put our things together. For you all out there, this may seems like something small and ordinary. But for me, its another step to be closer with the one you love and you wish to spend your entire life with.

The only regret was he's paying for almost everything. And because of that, he has to save on this and that so he couldn't 100% enjoy this trip. I know he was trying to fulfill his responsibility as a boyfriend but at the same time, its sad to see him like this. How I wish I didn't spent so much at the beginning of the month then I would have been able to add more happiness to this trip.

He was holding my hand all the time. I don't know if he ever get bored. But I wish he knows how warm and protected I felt inside. He's learning, always learning how to take care of me under whatever circumstances. I'm really thankful for that.

I also felt guilty because he had to take a day off due to the stubborn me who wanna go back on Monday morning instead of Sunday evening. So he just tell his boss he's taking a day off and decided to give me one more day. Thank you so much for the love, dear ♥

To repay everything he did for me, today I cooked for him. It's very simple and his grandma kinda took part in my cook-for-my-boyfriend plan. She helped to cook also! And we had a god time chit - chatting. I hope dear love the dishes I make today. *dont wanna tell you guys the menu cuz I'm feeling embarrassed*

So this morning we went to the market after we woke up. Buying veges and planning how to cook for him makes me feel blissful too. Its like we're preparing ourselves to be husband&wife. Yes, I just said that. Husband and wife.

The other day when we were at Penang Interactive Museum, there was a 3D wall painting. It's written there will you marry me and I do. I wanna take a picture with him but in the end we did not. Because at some point, I'm afraid that I might feed myself with too much happiness and hope and if all these vanish, I'm afraid that I can't get back on my feet.

I love him, yes. So much! But I'm scared if I can't last forever. I wanna marry you and only you. I can't imagine myself marrying another man but can I wait until the moment we get married? Are we the one for each other? Please bear with me. Please don't give up on us. Even if I want to, don't let me. And when the same thing happens to you, I will do the same.

I love you, Eddie Chong. Only you♥

TURNED 20

Goodbye teen-years.
Hi adulthood.

Celebrated my 20th birthday with so many food this year.
Kak Lily bought me burger, chocolate moist cake and chicken floss bread.
Whereas Alison bought me a huge bar of chocolate and Jiaqi bought me Paddlepop ice-cream.
Had supper with Cik Azreen at TKK. Superb delicious laksa and popiah!

While my love bought me McD's GCB as dinner/supper. And his friend Nicholas treated me the movie ticket to watch Delete My Love. And to my surprise, he bought me a Carlo Rino clutch and a handsfree. :') I love him so much. :')

Had an early celebration with my godsis OJA at Jusco. It was an awesome outing and catch up session with her. But she's in Pantai Hospital now. Please recover fast my dear sis!

Later going to meet my girlfriends at Karyan house. A mini celebration with Karyan, CKM and Chia Ying. Then later at night go to his house and then tomorrow morning go to Penang with love and his friends!! OMG. I'm so excited! :')

SOME LONG UPDATE :3

 This was taken last year :3 When we were shopping at Aeon Station 18. Look at him, still playing TOS when we're dating but I can't hate him because I love him that way.

 I was kinda sad when he said he couldn't chat with me because his network got problem and he asked me to go to sleep instead. What I did was I said I will go to sleep and "secretly" spammed his Wechat.

 This is the most recent picture. We went for a late night movie. Sometimes, it annoys me because he looks so damn good and it outshine me! hahaha. :x

 We were at a saloon waiting for his friend to get his hair cut. And he was TOS-ing and I was trying to take a selfie, with him as my background decoration. Hahaha

 This was during Chinese New Year 2014 at Yanshin's house. We were having some "in-our-own-world" time. LOL

 Secretly took this picture in the car when Nicholas was sending me home after spending like 7 days with him, during my CNY break. He was sitting at the front and he extended his hand to the back. Although it's not comfortable for him but we maintained like that until we reach my home. We just doesn't wanna let go. :/

 A selfie with him at his house, very very late night.

 Look at him laaaa. OMG. He looks so damn charming. *or is it just my imagination?* LOL

 

 That's him cooking lamb chop for lunch. It was the leftover from the bbq session the day before. But what's funny was, I was the one who ended up cooking. LOL

 During Chinese New Year, we were at Ipoh Parade, waiting for movie time! We just had dinner with his mum's side family. Yes, HIS FAMILY. :)