Thanks

'Thanks'
Is what you wrote on my palm today in the car..
Did you thanked me for forgiving you?
If it is, you're definitely not my #1,
Cause being able to be number 1 in my heart,
You should had understand my characters..
You know i was mad,
But you should also know that my anger wouldn't last long..

Yes,
You may thought that it'll put our friendship bond at risk,
And it sure will affect our bond,
But it took nanosecond to recover the bond once you're forgiven,
I had only one request now,
Be the one you are last time,
And stop breaking promises.
I mean it,
STOP BREAKING PROMISE..

My Sweetest Dream Ever

Hey readers,
I'm back,
Recently I update my blog quite a lot...
*lol*

Well,well,well,
There's something kind embarrassed if you want me to tell you face-to-face.
Haha,
Yesterday,
I had bought Yuchun his westcoat..
I am so happy,
And a feel of relief rush through my body right after i purchase it..


At night,
I went to sleep pretty late,
Cause I enjoy chatting with Vivian on FB so much,
I slept around 1am..
Hees~
Then I had a dream..
*I had been having problems with my memory, I had struggle the whole day to complete the 'puzzle'(dream)

This is how it goes(1st part):
I was sitting on the floor(which I don't know which floor),
Weeping saaaaaaadly..(T.T)

Then I wake up,
And I found myself crying..
I wonder what made me cry,
I ignore it and try to go back to sleep again..

My dream continues(2nd part):
I was there again,
Crying harder this time,
Then,
From far I saw a figure coming towards me,
The figure looks blur,
But somehow familiar,
But I can't recall,
I ignore that 'figure' and continue crying,
Then he spoke to me,
And then I know who is the figure..
(*it's hard to belive it!)
It's Yuchun,
He asked me:Hey, What's wrong? Are you okay?(very caring tone)
I just shooked my head,
Trying to show him how un-okay I am..
Then he put his hand on my shoulder,
Trying to comfort me..

Well,
I guess His comfort is not working,
Cause I'm still crying in his embrace(did I use this word correctly?),
Then he look at me and smile,
And give me a you-are-such-a-baby-when-you-cry look,
Looking so charming...
Dang! I didn't know he is that handsome!
He say: Hey~(very soft, I can't hear him if I wasn't that close to him)
I answered: hmm? (kinda going to stop crying)
Then he KISSED me..
*I mean can you imagine your FAVOURITE ARTIST KISSES YOU?!
*I should had appreciate it.. XD

In my dream,
I think I'm his girlfriend,
He is so caring and loving,
His kiss was soft and touchy,
Smooth like silk,
Not really moist,
But not really dry too..(GOD!! I can feel it so real as if I'm really kissing him!)
Then he say:Hey, everything is going to be alright(Melt immedaitely in his sexy voice)
Giving his most comforting smile ever..
I answered: Yea...
Sounds like I am not believing in him,
I wipe my tears and turn away..
(I still can feel the sadness in my drean now)

He grab my shoulder,
Making me stay in that position,
In his embrace position,
I was just too sad to retaliate or push him away,
So, I just let it be..
When I almost wake up,
He seems like know I am going to wake up from this sweet dream,
He hug me and kissed me again,
(*OH MY GOD!!!! I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT!)

This time the kiss was sweet,
It gives you a feel like,
No-worry-everything-will-be-fine,
Then it feels like,
I-will-miss-you and don't-forget-me..
I kinda enjoying it actually..

T.H.E.E.N.D

Duh~ Who won't like it when you kiss your love ones,
Eventhough he/she is an artist?
DAMN! I wish I'm not having my health problem now!
Well, at least I can get a clearer picture of my dream!
Yuchun, Love you more and more!!!
Muaxx Muaxx Muaxx
Wow,
I miss his kiss,
Seriously!
It's so damn soft and gentle!!
I am sure Huei, #1, #2 wants to have this dream too!!
Haha, even Oja(But I think she had kissed someone before adi,lol)

In my blurry image, and memory,
The firs kiss is just a normal kiss,
Like a peck on your lips,
But gentle...
Second kiss is a MINOR french kiss, I GUESS!
Cause I had 2 different feelings when he kisssed me,
Lols...
If tonight i had some sweet dream again,
I will tell you guys!
I love you all too!!
Nitex,
Muaxx

What's Wrong?

There're just too many what's wrong in my head right now..
Just too much..

My 1st What's Wrong is:
Should I really buy a birhtday present for Yuchun?
I had been facing cash crisis recently,
But still,
I had bought Yuchun his west coat..
At first,
I'm going to buy for him his west coat from G2000,
(WOW! IT'S DAMN BRANDED, AND EXPENSIVE)
It's RM459...
I did not purchase it because...
The first time I saw it,
It's so damn freaking nice,
But when I went so see it again today,
it's not that nice anymore..

So I changed my mind..
I went to Subzero Jeans..
There,
I found a few,
But I don't really like it much,
Because of the clothing's material and design,
But somehow,
The promoter(malay),
Is very sporting enough,
To make me impressed..
He non-stop showing all sorts of design,
And he even wear it to demo it..
Thanks to him,
I had chosen and brought the best choice(I think),
for Yuchun..
It's nice... ^^
Anyway,
The west coat is RM240
Way cheaper tha G2000,
But of course,
G2000's material quality is better..

My 2nd What's Wrong:
My feeling for Him seem slike fading for the first 2 days,
But then, again,
It had come back,
With stronger wall for me to break through..
What should I do?
Should I be honest and tell him the truth?
Nothing but the truth?
What if he rejects me, again?
It's going to hurt, badly...
He had been acting weirdly at tuition,
Trying to get my attention,
Well,
He DID GET my attention..
I'm trying hard to forget him and move on now,
Real hard,
Hope I will success...:(

My 3rd What's Wrong:
What's wrong with my granny lately?
Sha had been "shooting' me with her 'gun' and 'bullets'
(which means she had been scolding me NON STOP)
I tried to avoid her by staying in my room all day..
And it strains my eye,
A lot!!
Cause I will go online like crazy!
Really,
What's wrong with her?
Everything thing I did,
She scold,
Even a tiny thing..
Oh My God!!
I'm damn pissed when..*read the conversation below*
M: I'm back from tuition
G: Why you left your towel here?!! You can't finish your job, ain't you?!
M:(started to feel pissed, trying to control my anger) Oh, Sorry, I was in a rush to tuition..
G:Hurry up go eat your dinner then wash the dish and filled up the empty bottles!
M: Okay

While dinner-ing..

G: Still haven't eat your dinner? Faster go eat, don't starve yourself(in such a DAMN motherly tone)
My uncle answered okay..
*This uncle is just an ADOPTED son.. There's no blood relationship*
Then she turned and looked at me..
G:After you finished you dinner, Go bring Rocky(a pet, dog) for a walk first!
M:okay(sound pissed)

After I finish everything,
I ran up stairs and didn't go down for the entire night,
I DON'T WANT to see her annoying face,
I DON'T WANT to listen to her IDIOTIC command and order..

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! GOD DAMN IT!!

DO NOT NAG

We,
Guides of 8th and 7th coy,
Love our coy since we form 1, or maybe form 2,
We dislikes people who talks bad about our coy,
And we protect our coy,
And we did our very best to bring up 8th and 7th coy

YOU!
You quitted coy,
Then you joined 7th coy last year,
Enrol last minute as a FORM 3 guide.
You think you are great and better enough to beat US huh?

You want to shine,
But you are not sporty,
No respect in the leaders,
Even you friends..

You want to join dancing competition,
You can shake,
You're flat (no boobies),
You have no body shape,
And you think based on your BIG INTEREST in K-POP could make you join dancing competiton?
Puh-lease,
It's guides and scouts gathering,
Not k-pop and j-pop fans gathering..

Then you want to join marching competiton,
I'm so shocked to know that you're in at first,
But i'm glad that you're not in later on..
(I'm not that bitchy person to critic her until like this, but this is he fact!)
You IMMEDIATELY show the whole world you're damn MAD..
Do you think showing your unsatisfied and angry face will change the fact?
It can't my dear..

You seriously can't march properly,
And to train you,
at least 1 month,
Me and #1 also trained for that long for the first time,
And we're better than you before we're trained..
We can't waste time cause we don't have much time left!

You asked US/PKU wether are you in marching today,
*We had make it very clearly to her yesterday she is NOT in*
PKU said-I think you're not in, sorry la, you can join next year..

You cried?!
Just for such a little matter..
And you try to overtake your patrol during cooking competiton,
You thought no one saw that cause your disguise is good enough,
YOU know I can see through almost everyone's act,
Even your's..

Should I Change?

My recent activity was attending Ranger's camp..
I did a good job by bringing everyone and together as one..
I guess..

Anyway, I had been checking on his profile recently..
And most of his post have something to do with sexual stuff..
I really hurts me when I knew the guy that I love is that type of person..
(the type that kind of likes sexual A LOT)

I wish i could stop loving him,
what i'm trying to say here is STOP!!
I need to totally 100% erase my feeling towards him..
Left nothing but just friend's friendship..
No more LOVE..

But there is one thing I need to control after I completely erase my feeling towards him,
That is my feel to Yuchun,'Recently I'm getting more and more into him..
And once I lose control of my feelings,
I will fall for Yuchun,
seriously..
I'm Aries, and it's very true that Aries falls in love EASILY,
Of course I will be happy falling in love wit him,
But I wish i could fall in love with someone around me,
And that someone can be with me whenever I need him..

Just like how much I need my #1 and #2..

And PEOPLE!!
I had my #3 already..lols

Only For Yuchun

Few days ago, I went to Jusco accompanied by #1..
What's our main purpose there?
Only one,
That is look for a nice, stylish, trendy, hot, simple, and will make Yuchun good-looking stuff..
The stuff that I mean is a Jacket or maybe a coat..

We went to G2000, The first place that popped in my mind when I think of where to buy..
Well, it's pretty nice, and that piece of clothe cost RM459..
It's cheaper than what I'd thought..
I am definitey crAzy and obssess with Yuchun..

He's not only just an artist and singer in my heart,
he is something more..
Anyway,

Yuchun's birthday is coming up,
I really hope I could the birthday present for him..

I CHERISH him,
I ADORE him,
I ADMIRE him,
I LIKE him,
I LOVE him,
He is always the BEST!

The Uses Of Sanitary Pad

As most of us know,
There're many types and brands of pad..
For example:
Kotex, Sofy, Whisper, Laurier ant etc..

Well, we only know that pad is only use when girls are having their menstrual cycle,
But today,
Some classmates of mine had proven to me that we can use pad for other stuff..

The other uses are:
1)Model with it
2)Chinese fan dance using it as the fan
3)Use it to wipe mouth after finish eating (though it's clean, but its disgusting)
4)Use as make up removal's cotton..

The lesson today we'd learned was the other usage os sanitary pads besides than using it for menstrual cycle..
Here, I, Zeen, would like to thanks Ms. Mario, Ms.Professor of the Sex Talk Club..
Thanks for sharing such a useful knowledge with us..
thank you