I called it coincidence, but people call it fate?

We've met once,

In KL.

It's not planned,

You don't know I'll be there,

And I also don't know you'll be there.

But somehow,

Sometime,

And somewhere,

We met...

Same like the second time in Jusco..

I called it coincidence because it was Saturday,

And it's quite normal to meet your friends in a shopping mall.

Most of the time,

It was me who saw you first..

The third time was today,

At Polo Ground..

I was dead tired this morning,

And it was so crowded!

But in the crowd,

I saw you...

I thought I was hallucinating or imagining things,

But it was not..

You looked at me and you do not believe that it's me until your friend told you..

I wanna message you and chat with you..

I miss those time where you'll reply my message although you're busy..

And comfort me whenever I'm down and unhappy..

Now, I can't do it anymore..

I'm tired from all the craps lately..

And I don't have those nervousness whenever I saw you..

I just feel.... Normal.

Could it be because I no longer have those feeling for you?

Maybe...

But if I can control it,

I'll hold on to it and I won't let go.

No matter what!

Seriously?

Seriously!

What's with my fugly feeling now?

What's wrong with me?

I consulted my doctor, and although he said that I had nothing to worry about, I should do a check-up ASAP.

Duh, I know!

IF... IF there's a tumor,

my BP should be increasing and my heartbeat will be slower than normal,

Glad to say that everything is still very normal and okay now.

But still,

I have a bad feeling..

Hope it's just me...

IN THE PAST

In the past,

You were such a jerk,

Telling me lies,

That were lies,

Telling me truths,

That were like a samurai blade,

Cut right through my fragile heart,

That loves and beats vigorously,

For you..

In the past,

It was an insult,

For me to love you,

But it was you,

Who told your latter,

It was you,

Who broke the promise,

And stirred up troubles.

It was you!

In the past,

We were young,

We wanted to try,

The feeling of loving someone,

And being loved,

But it was inappropriate,

Because study is above all priorities..

In the past,

I would do anything,

Just to guarantee your smiles,

Laughters and happiness,

So I hold my breath,

Fight my tears,

Crushed my heart,

And bid farewell,

Good-bye.

How should I express it?

I really want to do it,

But it's the same like you're starting a business when you didn't even take business management classes!

The risk.

I can't afford to lost him.

I mean, he is a great friend...

If I'm going to be truthful to him,

He'll be shocked.

I just hope that things will turn out to be okay

*pray hard*

It was one of the happiest moment in my life...

I'm glad that you asked, almost immediately.

I'm happy that you care.

Brandon encouraged me to tell the truth to him.

Well,

I was kinda motivated to do so,

Sadly,

This is not the time... Yet, maybe.

Had a great time with Brandon yesterday.

Called him and chatted for an hour++

Funny stories were revealed one by one and we couldn't help laughing at each other's story.

It was fun.

I'm feeling better after a few hours of sleep!

NAME: Ng Phooi San

AGE: 17

BIRTHDATE: 16th of April

PRESENT ADDRESS: ----

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. last beverage = mineral water

2. last phone call = 20 minutes ago -from and to Mun Kah

3. last text message = from and to Mun Kah

4. last song you listened to = I Love You by Micky Yoochun

5. last time you cried = last week??

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated someone twice = If I'm looking for death!

7. been cheated on = what? Friendship? Countless times!

8. kissed someone & regretted it = YES! JoeYee!!! It was 100% an accident! But it's just a kiss on the cheek though

9. lost someone special = Yeap

10. been depressed = All the time!

11. been drunk and threw up = Been drunk- maybe yes. Threw up?! NO!!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. RED! (Cassiopeia and Big East's colour)

13. Blue

14. White

LAST YEAR (2010), HAVE YOU:

15. Made a new friend = A LOT!!

16. Fallen out of love = No, I guess..

17. Laughed until you cried = Thousands of time!

18. Met someone who changed you = I think so.

19. Found out who your true friends were = I thought I did. But it was a false alarm! =.=

20. Found out someone was talking about you = All the time!

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = Joe Yee!

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = 85% of them

24. Do you have any pets = A dog!

25. Do you want to change your name = NO. It's a prove that my mother loves me!

26. What did you do for your last birthday = Camping! LOL

27. What time did you wake up today = 8:49 am!

28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Erm. Just reached home?

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = Live with my bro and sis!

30. Last time you saw your Mother = 5 years ago.

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = Studying at Selangor's school instead of Main Convent, LOL

32. What are you listening to right now = Keyboard typing sound

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?= No.

34. What's getting on your nerves right now = My granny's stupid stories

35. Most visited webpage = facebook, dbsknights, twitter, blogger, youtube, dailymotion

37. Nickname = -----

38. Relationship Status = Single! :D

39. Zodiac sign = Aries

40. He or She = SHE

41. Elementary = Main Convent

42. High School = SMK Bukit Jelutong, Main Convent

43. College = ----

44. Hair color = Pitch black. HAHAHAHA

45. Long or short = Long!

46. Height = 168cm!!

47. Do you have a crush on someone? = Duh! Yes!

48. What do you like about yourself? = Being too easily convinced.

49. Piercings = Ears.

50. Tattoos = No, but I wanna get one. hehehe

51. Righty or lefty = Right~

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery = no

53. First piercing = when I was 4

54. First best friend = Karyan

55. First sport you joined = Netball

56. First vacation = Kuala Lumpur?

58. First pair of trainers = No idea.

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating = Nope

60. Drinking = Nope

61. I'm about to = *publish post*

62. Listening to = Daisy's voice~~~

63. Waiting to= Sleep!

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids? = Yeahhh.

65. Get Married? = If not how am I going to get my OWN kids? Hopefully, it's HIM. *dreaming!*

66. Career? = hoping to be a pilot

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes = eyes

68. Hugs or kisses = Hugs!

69. Shorter or taller = Taller..

70. Older or Younger = Older.

71. Romantic or spontaneous = Spontaneous

72. Nice stomach or nice arms = no idea.

73. Sensitive or loud = sensitive!

74. Hook-up or relationship = relationship

75. Trouble maker or hesitant = not any of that

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger = No

77. Drank hard liquor = Not really hard

78. Lost glasses/contacts = a bit

79. I deleted this question for innocent purposes = okay...

80. Broke someone's heart = yeah, sorry about it except for the latest issue.

81. Had your own heart broken = for gazillion time

82. Been arrested = no la

83. Turned someone down = Well, yeah.

84. Cried when someone died = I'm not that cold-blooded!!!

85. Fallen for a friend = A love relationship grew from a friend relationship, isn't it?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself = Yes

87. Miracles = Yes

88. Love at first sight = it must be Yoochun when I saw him at the showcase!!!!

89. Heaven = not really

90. Santa Claus = No way!

91. Kiss on the first date = I don't think so

92. Angels = Yeahhh

It's been a long time.

I'm feeling great again.

I'm doing better than I expected!

Well,

What can I say?

I'm a naturally born happy-go-lucky type.

Inherited from my mum <3

Ohhhhhhh,

And I finally know what's wrong!

You are immature.

That's the problem.