Hereby, I officially announce,

I'm now free to love ANYONE.

And that ANYONE is definitely won't be L.. Anymore.

So now,

I'm not loving anyone..

This feeling makes me feel kinda empty. And weird!

But I'll get used to it soon, real soon!

I used to cry when I read messages like that,

But now,

My tears seems to have dry up decades ago!

LMAO!

As long as you're honest, and sincere,

We're still friends :)

I called it coincidence, but people call it fate?

We've met once,

In KL.

It's not planned,

You don't know I'll be there,

And I also don't know you'll be there.

But somehow,

Sometime,

And somewhere,

We met...

Same like the second time in Jusco..

I called it coincidence because it was Saturday,

And it's quite normal to meet your friends in a shopping mall.

Most of the time,

It was me who saw you first..

The third time was today,

At Polo Ground..

I was dead tired this morning,

And it was so crowded!

But in the crowd,

I saw you...

I thought I was hallucinating or imagining things,

But it was not..

You looked at me and you do not believe that it's me until your friend told you..

I wanna message you and chat with you..

I miss those time where you'll reply my message although you're busy..

And comfort me whenever I'm down and unhappy..

Now, I can't do it anymore..

I'm tired from all the craps lately..

And I don't have those nervousness whenever I saw you..

I just feel.... Normal.

Could it be because I no longer have those feeling for you?

Maybe...

But if I can control it,

I'll hold on to it and I won't let go.

No matter what!

Seriously?

Seriously!

What's with my fugly feeling now?

What's wrong with me?

I consulted my doctor, and although he said that I had nothing to worry about, I should do a check-up ASAP.

Duh, I know!

IF... IF there's a tumor,

my BP should be increasing and my heartbeat will be slower than normal,

Glad to say that everything is still very normal and okay now.

But still,

I have a bad feeling..

Hope it's just me...

IN THE PAST

In the past,

You were such a jerk,

Telling me lies,

That were lies,

Telling me truths,

That were like a samurai blade,

Cut right through my fragile heart,

That loves and beats vigorously,

For you..

In the past,

It was an insult,

For me to love you,

But it was you,

Who told your latter,

It was you,

Who broke the promise,

And stirred up troubles.

It was you!

In the past,

We were young,

We wanted to try,

The feeling of loving someone,

And being loved,

But it was inappropriate,

Because study is above all priorities..

In the past,

I would do anything,

Just to guarantee your smiles,

Laughters and happiness,

So I hold my breath,

Fight my tears,

Crushed my heart,

And bid farewell,

Good-bye.

How should I express it?

I really want to do it,

But it's the same like you're starting a business when you didn't even take business management classes!

The risk.

I can't afford to lost him.

I mean, he is a great friend...

If I'm going to be truthful to him,

He'll be shocked.

I just hope that things will turn out to be okay

*pray hard*

It was one of the happiest moment in my life...

I'm glad that you asked, almost immediately.

I'm happy that you care.

Brandon encouraged me to tell the truth to him.

Well,

I was kinda motivated to do so,

Sadly,

This is not the time... Yet, maybe.

Had a great time with Brandon yesterday.

Called him and chatted for an hour++

Funny stories were revealed one by one and we couldn't help laughing at each other's story.

It was fun.

I'm feeling better after a few hours of sleep!