I fell sick :/

I hate flu, so much!

This month's EOM is on the 2nd of Jan 2013,

And I still need 1000VP more to be SV!

I was supposed to SV already but then I just let it off my grasp. *cries

My life has been so stressful lately.
Not because of my work, but because of those around me.
Why W&O can't stop complaining about each other?
Why can't they just focus on their work?
Why JW&DC can't stop telling me about fixing my transportation problem?
Why can't they see and understand that I'm not capable of doing that right now?!

I'm just so stress out and Eddie is not helping at all.
Erm, nope, he helped, a bit.
BUT THAT'S NOT ENOUGH.
GOD DAMN IT.
I'M SO DAMN STRESS!

WaiKhong&Pauline's Wedding

Amazing Herbalife family

One big family. One team, one dream! <3 td="td">

We're the scary JIMUI(S)! GRRRRR

Even Jien Wei is not a exception. LOL

Me & him. Our first 'formal' picture. Looks kind awkward because we were just being made fun of.

A much better version. 

My dear and I ^^ <3 td="td">

我们是一家人！

兄弟跟姐妹们

Ｍｙ　ｓｅｘｙ　ｂａｃｋ．．．．

I'm in a relationship

Well, well, well,
Finally Ng Phooi San is in a relationship with a guy named Eddie Chong.
Tall, fair, moderate looking, good personality.
He's just the one for me.

Although we're still new to this relationship thing,
We're trying our best to know more about each other,
And love each other more.

There's so much I want to tell you bloggie.
But then the laptop's batt is running flat!
GTG.
Anyway, the sweetest moment is still the moment where we spent in the car :)

These few days, I had been fetching Eddie to SPPK NC to help out and make him work.
*I just can't stand seeing someone who has the ability but don't make full use of his/her ability.

Eddie followed me to Parade to discuss something with my new customers.
There was a moment when Eddie asked me for a mirror and I don't have it and his reaction is so surprised!
"Hah?! You don't have a mirror?!" ----> that was what he said to me.
After roadshow at Pologround, we went for dinner at Tong Sui Street.
Then Eddie wanted to tell Kuanyee and Sean that mirror story but I stopped him because it's so embarrassing!
Then Kuanyee said "Seems like both of you spend quite a quality time together this afternoon."
Sean was so quiet. "/
Sean was craving for some snack after dinner and I reminded him about the fried wanton that he wants to forget so badly. I can't eat it because I'm only allowed to eat veges for this whole month.
So Eddie and him ordered one plate and make those crunchy noise when they bite on the fried wanton.
Sean ate the fried wanton with such big action just to make me feel jealous because I can't eat.

At first, when Sean kept on asking me to join them walk on it. I refused to  but then I took of my heels and walk together with them. They started walking first but I finished it faster than both of them.
They kept on saying "Why you so geng one? Why you so expressionless one? Not pain aa? Why you so fast one?"
I just focus on finishing it. I was surprised with the determination that I have when I was walking on those stones. It's painful. But not as painful as my life's journey. That's why I managed to finish walking it :)
*back to the story
I said "They're so funny. When I joined them, I finished faster than them!"
Then Sean said "No la, I let you win only. I can chase you one!"
Immediately, Kuanyee said "Huh? You want to chase Phooisan? You sure?"
Then Sean and I was like so embarrassed and kept on denying it.
Eddie was sitting across me and asked "What if Sean really chase you?"
My answer was "I'll only decide after I became Global Expansion Team Member"

BUT THEN.
I can feel Eddie trying to dig information about my life.
No one really asked about my past.
He is the first one in Herbalife who asked me.
Have you dated anyone before? What kind of things that people can't say about you?
He's asking quite a lot. And he's really caring. I can feel it. Very, very caring.
I'm aware of it and I don't tell him much. He's not qualified to know about me that much, yet.
You're such a nice person and I don't have the heart to hurt you.
I'm hoping and praying hard that you're just being friendly and caring :)

Strength and Hope

Today was the last day of 90-Days Plan.
I joined this Plan since the first day. Time flies!
I've been working as a Herbalife Independent Distributor for almost 4 months already.
It feels. Unbelievable.

Today, Viya went on stage and asked us to close our eyes.
Then she asked "Who think his/her life is really very hard now? Please raise your hand."
I gave it a thought, and yes, I raised my hand.
"Think again. Is your life really so hard? Is everything so hard for you right now?"
I still raise my hand.

Yes, my life is so hard right now.
I've never experience such HARDship before.
It's beyond my imagination.
Yes, I want to change it.
But I'm not desperate enough to make a move.
A move that will change everything.
A move that will make everything better.
My situation is bad.
Bad to the extent where I'm limited to what I can do.
I used to be so free, not bound by anything.
But now, I feel like I'm living in a prison.
Bound by the obstacles.

I want to change. Yes, I want to change so badly.
I keep on praying, wishing for things to get better.
Praying to God, asking for His help to give me strength and hope to go on.
The problem now is, I don't know what I can do to change it.
Whatever I do, comes to no avail.
I want to ask for help.
But what kind of help should I ask for?
Who should I ask?

When Viya asked "Is your life very very hard now?"
I can feel my eyes burning, the tears are coming.
That's how hard my life is.
I can no longer control.
I've let my fears control me.
I've never been like this for the past 18 years.
This, is the first time in my life.
This is a lesson that can't be learned at any College or University.
This is a lesson that is given by God.
I know, if I can go through this, I'll win another battle.
But to me, this looks more like a war.
I've lose some battles, to win this war.
But I don't have the confidence.
Lack of strategies? I don't know.
Support? I have no idea!

I just wish, I'll be given strength and hope to overcome this.

BOOT CAMP @ Penang

I've to say that Boot Camp changed my life.
I don't need huge events like Extravaganza.
Boot Camp's power is more than enough to show me the answer that I'm looking for.
It shows me what Mark Hughes saw in Herbalife.
I've learned so much in 2 days.
Thanks a lot to my sponsor for going there with me.

It's just too incredible! Too extraordinary until I don't know what else I can say!