MY POV

Its been a month. But I'm still waiting, hoping.
Why? Because I love him too much. A little too much.
I can suddenly smile when I reminisced those sweet moments,
And cried when the pain struck.
How did we end up like this?
I really don't know.

I miss you so much. But do you even know? Maybe you know, maybe you don't.
Like I said that day, I've reached the level where I don't like you anymore, but I love you.
Have you reached that level? I don't care.
All I care is you, and I want to be with you.

Some of them ask me to end this.
While some just say "follow what your heart says."
So I decided to wait.

If everyone will break up just because of small matters,
Then true love won't exist.
Because being in a relationship means being each other's half.
Your half in him, and his half in you.
If you can't do that,
Then don't even think about being in a relationship.

If everyone break up because of a small mistake,
Then everyone's record of their love life will be a bad one,
You'll have so many ex and so if your partner.
Won't you mind?
If everyone break up because they can't work things out,
Then there a blissful marriage is just a fairytale.

See, if everyone decides to change when things go wrong, instead of thinking how to overcome it,
Then there won't be any successful people.
Why are those people so successful in life?
Why their ridiculous dreams can come true?
Because they've know mistakes and they consistently look out for solutions to reach that one thing that they want to achieve.
Don't adjust your goals, but adjust your plans to reach your goals.
I'm still young, I know.
I'm just 19 so why think so much?
The answer is, that's how serious I am in this relationship.

2013

2013 did not begin and its not as good as I expected.
Well, well, well,
What else could it be?

I hate staying with my brother and his girlfriend.
I HATE IT SO MUCH
Seriously, what's the problem between us?
Why would you complain about the dog?
If you don't want to take care of it, then let it be.
I'll take care of it.
Why would you interfere and rants about his place, his food, and everything?
Why would you go through all the trouble and FORCE Rocky to eat dog food?
When you know he hates it and he don't eat it.
He didn't eat for a day now. I don't know about today.
Will you be responsible for whatever that's going to happen to rocky boy?
Obviously you won't.
Then shut the fuck up and let me handle the things.

Why should I pay for the rental when I'm staying with you?
I'm your sister, your sibling, your family.
What is this?
And why do I have to change rocky's food and have to pay extra RM100 for it?
Just why?
Why are we not looking for a remedy? Why are we always looking for faults?
Why is it so hard to live with you?
What's really happening?

Which part of me that annoys you so much until you said you wants to slap me?
Which part of me that upsets your girlfriend so much until she used a nickname "cockroach" to represents me?
And even asks you to kill the cockroach?
Hate me that much?
Then kick me out!
Or else shut the fuck up and lead your fucking life.

Do I have a attitude problem or is it both of you that have a problem?
Why not try to improve ourselves and look for more solutions instead of arguing almost everyday.
What's the point?
I don't see the place I'm staying as a home, or a house.
To me, it's just a HOTEL.
Why?
No reason. To be exact, I don't need a reason at all.
A house that has no warmth, no love nor protection.

How am I going to live in this house for 356 days?
DAMN!

I found this picture at FB and I shared it out because I was so fat when I was Form 5! Even I, myself finds it unbelievable! Then, my cousin commented on my picture saying that I looks different now. Eddie saw that comment and says :

"Of course you looks different, I'm beside you."

He was talking about our profile picture. That's one of the sweetest things he said <3 p="p">

The first thing that he made me smile is the way he express he misses me. He said 

"I can't focus when I'm playing games on my PSP, I don't know what I'm watching on the television, I don't know what's going on when I'm reading the comic. Nothing feels right, because I miss you so much."

He's such a sweetheart. I'm missing him so much right now. <3 font="font">

I fell sick :/

I hate flu, so much!

This month's EOM is on the 2nd of Jan 2013,

And I still need 1000VP more to be SV!

I was supposed to SV already but then I just let it off my grasp. *cries

My life has been so stressful lately.
Not because of my work, but because of those around me.
Why W&O can't stop complaining about each other?
Why can't they just focus on their work?
Why JW&DC can't stop telling me about fixing my transportation problem?
Why can't they see and understand that I'm not capable of doing that right now?!

I'm just so stress out and Eddie is not helping at all.
Erm, nope, he helped, a bit.
BUT THAT'S NOT ENOUGH.
GOD DAMN IT.
I'M SO DAMN STRESS!

WaiKhong&Pauline's Wedding

Amazing Herbalife family

One big family. One team, one dream! <3 td="td">

We're the scary JIMUI(S)! GRRRRR

Even Jien Wei is not a exception. LOL

Me & him. Our first 'formal' picture. Looks kind awkward because we were just being made fun of.

A much better version. 

My dear and I ^^ <3 td="td">

我们是一家人！

兄弟跟姐妹们

Ｍｙ　ｓｅｘｙ　ｂａｃｋ．．．．

I'm in a relationship

Well, well, well,
Finally Ng Phooi San is in a relationship with a guy named Eddie Chong.
Tall, fair, moderate looking, good personality.
He's just the one for me.

Although we're still new to this relationship thing,
We're trying our best to know more about each other,
And love each other more.

There's so much I want to tell you bloggie.
But then the laptop's batt is running flat!
GTG.
Anyway, the sweetest moment is still the moment where we spent in the car :)