Just a fast and short update..
GAHHH!!!!
Hecticnya my f5 life!!!

I will soon get sick of looking for the teachers..
Especially my bio teacher..
Anyway,
Gotta work hard for my club, Rangers and my class as well as my study!
Gambateh ppl!!
Love ya~

BYEBYE!

There're tonnes of reason why I DON'T want to end year 2010 that fast..
It's because 2010 meant a lot to me..
It's one of the most meaningful year to me..
Usually I'm very happy to welcome the new year,
But this time,
I'm somehow sad..
I don't know why.. :(

This was the year where I nearly destroyed myself..
I saved myself..
Because there's something I haven't achieve yet..
Something very important..
I had changed a lot..
I had become a even more kind hearted person when you're nice to me,
And I'd become a even more cruel person when you make me mad...
Weird, huh?
Yeah, I know it's weird..

I had quarreled with my friends,
Nearly lose some of them,
I'm stubborn,
But so what?!
I don't mind losing anyone,
Because I had lost too many last time..
So,
I'm kinda feelingless..
LOL

And yeah,
I had gained many experience this year.
And I had learned a lot although I just worked for one month!
I don't know want to start from where..
It's just too much!

Thanks a lot to Ah Hong, Ah Yao, Ah Yeaw, Ah Joe, Lik Chen, Eddie, ChoongZai, Isen, Ah Kiat, Ah Ying, Junnie, Daisy, Ah Yu, Ah Ooi, Miss Tan, Mr. Kuek, and a lot more...
They did not just taught me a lot of things, but they treated me as if I'm their younger sister/daughter..
I really treat them like they'rr my family..
And Miss Tan even asked her driver to fetch me to Kizuna One WHENEVER I feel like going there..
LOL
Thanks a lot Miss Tan! <3
There's too much to express..
They're just the best colleagues!
Ahhhh....
I'm really going to miss them!
I even feel like crying now..
Tomorrow is my last day..

:(

But!!!
Today,
I made my sister cried..
Hahahaha..
It's her birthday,
And so she came to Kizuna One..
Then I asked Miss Tan to help me buy a cake..
So,
I suddenly walked over to their table,
(It was table 4, there're Jie, Kevin, Gor, Marcus and Kristen)
And showed them the cake..
She's shocked..
The cake was for my bro and sis..
Then I sang them Birthday song,
DAMN EMBARASSING!
They wanted me to sing again,
But Jie wanted me to stop,
Because if I continue,
She's going to cry..
Her eyes was so wet!
Only that the tears did not escape from the corner of her eyes..
Glad that she and gor like it...
I hope this is one of their best birthday surprise!
GOR AND JIE,
I LOVE YOU!!! MUAXXXX!!!
I'll give you guys more surprise! ;)

And at 11:59p.m,
I wished Brandon boyboy too..
His birthday is 31st Dec also..
And I just gave him a very memorable birthday wish!
One minute before was "Happy Birthday bro!"
And one minute later was "Happy New Year!!"
I'm glad that I had a great time tonight..
GAHHH~
I'm crying!
T_T
I miss my colleagues already!

I changed huh?

But why is it always the opposite side?

You think I changed and I'm now a better person,

But I don't think so..

=.="

It's a SAD CHRISTMAS night

Why?
I don't know..
I saw it..
I finally know that although you had been saying you won't forget or put them away,
It's not the truth..
You had put them away..
Do you really love them?

I planned one too..
But you say you couldn't go..
And what now?
Huh?
I'm so tired of all these craps.
Your craps.

Yesterday was FULL..
I'm happy about it..
There're more than 20 customers ordered our Christmas set.
ALthough I need to spent quite some time just to decorate my plate for the desserts,
I'm satisfied.

Today was quite full too..
But guess what?
I ain't happy..
Everything was messy..

And I don't know why,
My mood was completely ruined...
And now here's the 'Queen' again..
YOU'RE DAMN NOISY AND IRRITATING!
WOULD YOU MIND TO SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LET ME REST!?
F*CK!!! F*CK!!!! F*CK!!!!!!
You're NOTHING!
You're a GOLD DIGGER, MONEY SUCKER!
I HATE YOU!
I wonder how did my mum put up with you for so many years!

Today chatted with Daisy about her love stories...
She go on a strict diet and did not drink any cold drink just for her ex..
Now that I think of it,
I did sacrificed a lot..
And I just gave up so easily after what I did for him?
Don't you think it's a bit wasted and it's very stupid and silly??
Well,
I think so!
I did not just spent money!
My effort had all gone to drain..

*yeah! SHUT THE F*CK UP!*


*went to CSSPF for 10 minutes*

Now!
My mood is prettyy gooooddd!
All thanks to Kyouya aka Jess!
I just read her one-shot ff and it's great!
She's really my senior! LOL

Yeah..
I never thought today was such a bad day for me....
And I need some time alone..
It had been some time since I last made it 'rain'..

I'M SO PISSED

Be more considerate!!
If I can get it elsewhere,
I wouldn't had asked you!
Use your brain!
You never changed..
You are still the selfish one...
That's why that incident happened!
It's not my fault,
It's yours!
F*CK YOU!

MY EMPTY HEART IS NOW OCCUPIED BY MY COLLEAGUES.

I feel kinda EMPTY right now..
Yes,
My heart is EMPTY..
Because he don't exist in my heart anymore..

One thing I love about my colleagues here is they're very caring..
Extremely caring!
They treat me like their younger sister,
Although they can't STOP teasing me..
Everything I say and do,
They'll tease me..
They LOVE to see me 'gik dou'..
But they're great companion whenever you're boring!

There's only one fan in the Kitchen,
And they will give me the fan whenever it's my break time..
Because I usually take a short nap when I'm waiting for Daisy's shift to end..
When I lie down and sleep in a not-so-good position,
They'll say "Later your neck will be in pain, don't sleep like this.."..
When I didn't eat,
They'll ask me whether want some food or had I eaten..
When I didn't go back home during break time,
They'll offer me a ride to go out to eat..
They're nice!
Although sometimes really very 'gik sum' when they purposely tease/dicturb me..
Lik Chen is the most self-loving people I ever know!
But he more annoying+funny..
Although he didn't annoy me.
LOL

I just love my colleagues!

THIS POST IS ESPECIALLY FOR ALVISS KONG

I don't know whether did he succeed on suiciding or not,
*went to check*
Well, he succeed..
He suicided on the 9th of December 2010..
Some said 10th...
I just found 'Alviss Kong's Grave' profile.
:(
Alviss Kong is the bravest boy and yet the silliest boy..
He's young, handsome, cute and he's a person that loves HER whole heartedly..
He chose to suicide after 4 months of relationship with the girl was broken..
He loved the girl a lot..
He even left a last note before he died..
We,
Girls,
Need guys like him..
A loving guy..
I don't know why,
But reading his last note just made me cried..
He even took a last picture of him before he died,
And in that picture,
He was crying..

If a girl can make a guy cry,
It means the guy really loves the girl..
I think the girl will feel guilty forever.
And she should remember Alviss forever,
The only man that love her so much till suicide..
I know many of you will say he's stupid+silly+brainless and all kinds of negatives comments.
Those of you who said this,
You guys are a bunch of idiots...
You must had never felt those pain before..
I had faced it for 4 times..
I know how much it hurts.
He had the bravery to kill himself rather than facing the pain is because he really love the girl and he don't want to feel the pain anymore..
Although no one knows what will happen after we died,
But just pray for Alviss..
I found his real facebook profile,
And FYI, you won't be able to add him..
I did tried,
But there's too much friend requests..
It means the profile of ALviss Kong does exist,
But not the person..
You'll also find a lot of his stuff in facebook when you type 'Alviss Kong'
His profile :
http://www.facebook.com/alvissk


Read Hermione's blog.. There's more info and there's his last note and some picture too..
And FYI, the music is a quite sad music,
So it WILL affect your emotion..
Hermione's blog : http://lovehermione.blogspot.com/2010/12/sad-and-wasted.html

There's news that his ex suicide but was rescued at a hospital.. Not sure whether she's alive or not.. Hope she is. Because the reason Alviss suicided was to leave her side and hope she find someone better.. Not asking her to follow him along..

Video At Youtube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DRkuw45rR2g


NEWS:

http://lifeisreallybeautiful.com/malaysia/alviss-kongs-suicide-how-tragic/

A more complete news:

http://joshuaongys.com/2010/12/19-yrs-old-malaysian-alviss-kong-jumped-off-building-committing-suicide-after-leaving-facebook-message/