*ANONYMOUS*
I seriously don't get it..
Why are you doing this again?
WHY?
But there's something I finally realised..
Whatever you do now,
It's not important to me anymore..
You wanna know why?
It's because you don't deserve to stay in my heart anymore..
I once loved you so much,
But now,
Not anymore..
When people asked me what you are to me,
Or how important are you to me..
I'll just you're just a simple closer-than-friend to me and sorry, you're no longer important to me..
I'm so fed up with you..
You never did anything right.
You disappoint me again and again..
What you said to me few days ago,
Is a lie..
Never thought that I realised it's a lie?
FYI,
I know you too well..

Well, should I move on to the next person I wanna talk about? Erm.. Who should I talk about first???

*LZR*
What about LZR?
LOL..
If you're not interested,
You may just skip his part!
Tuition as usual...
He sat there again..
KY say he seduce me again..
Same thing repeat all over again..
I was really curious why he wanna sit there..
At FB, I asked him..
But he didn't reply me..
It really pissed me off when he didn't reply me..
Because I had been filled with anger earlier before I asked him..
And his not-replying-action just make me angrier..
I wonder,
What will happen if I tell him that I actually still like him?
I really dont know!
Okay, enough of LZR.. Let;s move!

*MICKY PARK YOOCHUN*
Everyone know that JYJ's WorldTour had started..
And I'm hell worry about Micky..
He fainted twice at the SET..
He sang and dance and jump and run during the showcase..
I really worried what'll happen if he fainted suddenly during showcase..*touchwood*
And there's one thing I'm really mad about those cassies that show support ONLY TO JJ AND JS..
I mean HELLO!!
Who have the best english pronounciation? MICKY!
Who need to film, and busy for the WorldTour at the same time? MICKY!
Who taught JJ and JS english the most? MICKY!
Who have the weakest body in JYJ? MICKY!
And yet, you guys only know how to show endless support to Jaejoong and Junsu..
WHAT THE FUCK?!
I'm really not happy about this..
MICKY AIN'T USELESS!
MICKY AIN'T INVISIBLE!
You people out there is just so annoying!!

And last but not least.. My mum..
I know she had left 4 years ago..
Unbelievable huh?
FOUR YEARS!
But ut felt like it just happened few days ago..
The memory are still fresh in my brain..
There's once in 2 months where I'll stay up very late just to wait everyone to go to sleep,
So that I can release my feeling and emotion.
Yeah..
I miss my mum...
I know I might sound desperate,
But what do you expect?
My mum deceased when I was just 12..
Now looking at people around me just make me feel myself as a unlucky child who lost her mother at the age of 12.
Is that fair to me?
I know I shoukd move on and forget the past..
But how can I do so when eveything happens because of my mother's death?
And I know my friends are very considerate..
They'll never brought my mum's issue until there're really a need to do so..
And people usually got so shocked when they know I dont have a mum or a dad..
Last time I hate people say these words "Poor girl.." or "She's so unlucky"..
Now that I'm used to it, I don't feel anything when people say those words..
And I always feel sad when people show me their love..
Like a aunty hugged me and say "How're you doing, my dear?"
I swear I can cry on the spot..
Because I never got showered with so much love ever since my mum died..
Seriously..
Besides than my brother and sister.. No one else did love me..
My grandma?
She only love her ADOPTED son..
Mind my rudeness but she's totally blinded by him..
What can I do?
She's too old to think clearly now..
That's why I don't like it when people who is not close to me,
Suddenly care a lot about me..
It just makes me feel sad..
Because the one who should care for me is gone..
And I just can't accept it yet..
Honestly..
I can't accept it..
I may seem okay..
But I'm not..