I hated it.

There's many things that I hate but I couldn't help to love it back.

I hate it when she talks about money.

I know how important is money in a world that thirst for it.

But can't she forget, even just a moment about it?

I hate it when you talk about my mother..

I'm sad to admit that I'm losing memories of my mother.

She had been living in my memories since I was 12.

I don't know what kind of person she is because I didn't get the chance to know her.

She left without saying a word.

She was in pain when she left.

To me,

My mother is the world's best person.

She was always there for me,

She was the only one who really loves me,

She was the only one who don't give me pressure about my future,

She was the only one who let me dream to be who I want to be,

She was the only one who hugged me when I'm sad.

And she was the only one who can see through my fake happy-laughter.

Please,

Stop telling me things I don't want to hear,

Stop spoiling the image I have in my mind.

I can't afford to lose anymore more memory about her..

SPM result is coming out on the 21st and I'm nervous.

Super nervous.

I always thought I did fine.

But suddenly,

I felt like I won't make it..

What will I do after I take my results?

NO IDEA.

I'm really down these days and since I'm finally back,

I think I'll pay my mother a visit before I take my results.

It's been a long long time since I last talked to her.

I hope she'll bless me with good results.