Yesterday was the worst.
I can't sleep.
Was watching Grey's Anatomy and it wasn't a sad scene but I just feel my tears fell as if the gravity force is so strong that it can't stop falling.
Then I just lie on my back and let it fall uncontrollably.
And I'm crying so badly, almost suffocating my brain as its lack of oxygen.
Then it stopped suddenly, and I continue watching the series until 7am in the morning.
Slept for a while, get up and start doing the resume and CV for the interview on this Saturday.

I miss him, I need him.
What can I do if the worse really happened to ME?
Will you leave and run away from problems again?
Or will you wake up and make a change?
I'm hoping and praying hard that all these that's happening to me is due to stress.
I don't want this to be another reason for you to say you needs a temporary break from all this.
I want this to strengthen our bond instead or making it weak.
You asked me some times ago whether do I have it and you looks so, I don't know. Anticipated?
But I trust you despite of whats going to happen.
Because I just know you better than myself.
Love you Eddie Chong. <3 br="">