GOD!!
I seriously need to study!!
I need to do well in my August test in order to score better in final exam!!
Or else,
My sister will kill me!
SHE WILL!

And Zunren taught me something..

"fear of the consequences"

I'm really afraid of what's going to happen to my well planned future if I don't do well in my exam!

I might not be able go to Oxford/Cambridge.

I most probably can't..

I'm in the last class of Science stream,

KNOW YOUR PLACE GAL!

Well,

I do know my place and my position!

I MUST further my study,

And I must achieve my ambition of being an artist..

I MUST..

I don't know why,

People look down on my family so much..

What we did?

We didn't kill your parents,

Or harm your children!

Or take your wealth!

We're always on OUR OWN,

And you can't stop picking on us..

Now that one of your PICKERS is sick,

You came and be nice to us,

Just to seek our help,

Because WE CAN HELP.

But let me tell you something..

MY FAMILY is a cruel family..

Why we became cruel?

Thanks to you all..

You want help?

Even if you're on your knees,

WE WON'T HELP.

I know it doesn't sound like me/us..

But that's us when it came to PICKERS like you all..

You look down on us,

I'll make you regret in future,

I promise myself,

I'll make ALL OF YOU REGRET!

It's not a revenge,

It's just a payback for what you had been doung to us.

PAYBACK!

I'm just mad about them out of a sudden..

Don't mind me :)

I'm fine..

I just need to score!

And DAMN!

I'm still YouTube-ing, Facebook-ing, Twitter-ing and Blogging here!

Bye bloggie..

I love you!

WHAT AM I?

What am I?
A very simple question but for those who're thoughtful,
They'll think CLEARLY before they answer.
Yes, we're human..

But what are us?
Are we just some normal human beings?
NO..
Every human is diferent no matter how much similarity they have.

So what am I?
Should I make a brief axplanation about me?
And let you guys judge me?
I guess I should..
CORRECTION!
No judging,
Just some opinion.

So,
I'm 16 this year,
Not a pretty one,
Not a slim one either,
Studies is just okay and it will be better if I really sit for hours and study.

My attitude?
I may look scary and angry all the time,
But once you know me,
You'll know that that's just my look,
I'm not like that!
I do smile,
I do laugh,
I do cry like you all!

I can be nice,
When you're nice to me,
I can be as evil as Lucifer os Satan,
If you make me mad.
That's me,
How you treat me,
Reflects on how I treat YOU.

My temper is bad especially when I just wake up,
NEVER EVER mess with me that time.
Well,
Any jokes is acceptable when I'm happy,
EXCEPT
For COCKROACH, AND LIGHT.
I really going to smack whoever's face if they dare do that to me!
And worse,
I'll be mad for 2 days..

*I never mad for 2 days before, maximum 1 day or maybe 1 and a half day. LOL!

What else?
I'm the kind who respect teacher,
If the teacher is really good,
I'll really respect him/her from my heart,
Although he/she may lose their temper once in a while.
If you're not so good as a teacher,
I'll still respect you..
I respect any teacher,
It's just the matter of how much I respect you.

I'm funny..
I mean I can be funny,
And I can be very, very funny.
Dirty minded?
DEFINITELY NOT ME!
Hahahaha,
Maybe #21
XDDD

Well,
That's all I guess..

=And I want to know who's that mysterious man in my dream,
Gonna dream about him later!

SAD?

Nothing special happened,

But I just feel sad out of a sudden!

And guess what I did to un-sad myself!

*what a great english user, UN-SAD!

I light up a candle,

And stare at it..

I play with it..

For almost 30 minutes,

I'm back to my normal self.. :D

I'm currently high-ing Shinee,

Except for Minho..

LOL!!

Taemin cute!!

DREAMMMMMM

It's been quite a long time since I last dreamed..
And because of this dream,
It make me feel scared to dream again!

It's not a scary or horror dream,
It's.......
I don't know!

In the dream,
There's a guy,
A guy whose face I don't remember and I can't recognise..
Hundred percent sure I DON'T KNOW THAT GUY.
He's like part of my life..
I can feel it although I'm dreaming,
I don't know why,
But this guy seems very special and important to me..

I just can't leave him..
*He don't look like Micky or Zunren at all!

There's few part,
One part was I started to feel tired,
Vey tired,
(And I'm happy that I finally feel tired and my brain can finally rest!)
ANd just as I go to my room(in the dream), everything seems changes.
He was suppose to be out,
I mean he went out couple of minutes earlier,
And now I saw him in my room..
He came to me and said something..
I don't remember what he said..

Then he started to hug me,
Which I strongly oppose,
I pushed him away and smack him HARD.
He came to me again,
Trying to make up with me by making out,
I kind of like the make out session,
But still,
Not with someone I don't know!
I pushed him away again..
I was really, really mad.

I think he felt hurt,
So he left the house,
Which make me so worry..
I tried to go out of the house,
But I didn't.
Because outside of the house is somewhere I don't know,
So I waited for him to come back..
At night,
Where the sun had set,
He came home,
I welcomed him and feel so glad that he's safe and sound.

This time,
I apologised,
And he just shook his head
(I don't know what happen later)
Then just right before I open my eyes,
I saw myself kissing with him.
Then I'm awake,
Coughing like no tomorrow.

I was thinking what does that dream means?
I don't know that man..
Why I kissed him?
Why he hugged and kiss me?
I want to know!

CRAP!

Guess what..

I had bought a new shampoo!! :)

It's Dove, hope it's good like Tresemme!!

I miss Micky a lot!!

I want him!!

:(

I'm finally back to my not-so-healthy state,

But a lot more healthier than last week..

YEAH!

What else huh?

YA!!

My parcel is reaching Japan!

Excited man!!

Hope Micky got it..

Although the chance is very thin..

Just HOPE and PRAY!

A frustrating UPDATE

My day started off pretty bad..
And how bad it was?
Read the conversation below and you'll know why..

Me: Did #1 text you? Anyway, she'll be absent today, she's not feeling well..

LCLY: What?! She said she's going to help me buy stuff today! Ask her go die laa...

I just kept my mouth shut, controlling my anger.. I keep telling my self to calm down.. Once I calm down, I said it in my heart.. You know #1 is not the type who don't help people unless she really can't or there's something more important than that.. You just can't be undersatnding even for once? You should put yourself in #1's position and you'll know how it feels. And guess what?! As a 'reward' for being such suchh a 'good morning starter' her partner was absent too.. See? God is fair!

As for #2 being absent, it might be because she's not feeling well.. She seldom absent without notificating any of us.. Going to meet her at tuition though!

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Sigh.. Now that I think back yesterday's incident, I still feel kind of scared.. The feeling of going dizzy, losing balance, fell down and you lose your sight too..
it's REALLY SCARY..
I was planning to go downstairs to get some water,
And when I stand up and started walking,
I felt extremely dizzy..
I thought of holding or lean on the cupboaard,
But in the end,
My dizziness took control..
And what happen?
YES, I FAINT..
I was starting to fall,
I can feel myself falling,
And I can't see what's happening,
AT ALL,
I was losing my eyesight.

The next thing I knew was my eyes immediately shot open when my knee hit something DAMN FREAKING HARD and thanks to that thing, I regain my conciousness..
Although it might be just a blackout for few seconds..
but the effect is strong enough to make me feel afraid..
After hitting the thing, I found myself lying on the floor,
Struggling to breath..

but still..
They don't believe that it really happens to me..
It might sounds like a joke to you,
But I had been through it,
And I know NOW,
How it feel when you blackout and fainted..
Believe me..
I DO KNOW

OH MY GOD!!!

*AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!*

Screaming my lungs out!!!

Oh My God!

I just saw him online!

HIM!!!

The one that I miss him like hell!

The one that can melt me in an instant!

Can't believe it!!! :DDD