TIRED

I'm tired of all this shits.

I'm sick of it.

Stop saying you love me.

Stop saying you miss me..

I know it's not true.

Because there's someone else.

You always mean something to me.

But not now anymore.

Now, you're just someone who's don't worth my time, and my love.

I'm always too good for you.

I'm too good for anyone.

No one deserves me, except for myself.

You don't deserve me.

And I don't need you anymore.

I can love myself more than how much you love me.

You won't let it go?

I will.

I might look soft,

But you'd seen my other side,

The opposite me,

Zeen...

When I'm mad,

I'm not the kind and funny Ms.M/Ms.P anymore,

I'm Ms.Zeen.

Yes,

I have two personality,

I can control Zeen,

But when I'm so tired of you,

I'll rest..

I'll let Zeen take over my place,

And let her do anything she want.

I'll be happy to let her do THAT.

Everyone seems so fake to me.

As in, their existence..

Sometimes,

I was wondering whether is this my life,

Is this my family?

Is this my best friend?

Is this my pet?

I seems like can't believe anything.

Because my life is FULL OF LIES.

But one thing never change..

My love for Zunren,

My love for Micky,

And my Best Friends(#1,#2,#3) won't change.

THE MORE I THINK

The more I think about you,

The more I miss you,

The more I need you..

I need to talk to you,

I need your advices,

But you're always busy..

Should I tell the truth?

A question that I think every singla day.

Should I tell you that I still like you?

The answer is no.

I can't tell you,

'cause it's proven so many times that you're so happy to know that I'd move on.

You're really a dumbo.

What to do?

I'd fall for a dumbo..

Mr.Dumb Dumb/Mr.Zunren,

I wish you know how much I miss you, I need you all these while.

And I really love you..

I NEED YOU

I need you.
Can you stay with me?
Just for an hour.
But I know you can't.

The End?

Zunren...

All about you AGAIN...

Is it the end for us?

Or is it the start?

You started to care for me,

Or were you doing this because you think you should do this?

You really care for me?

Or it's just normal caring from friend?

I don't know,

Only you'll know,

But I can't ask you,

Or else you'll know it's all lies..

I don't mind letting you know that I still love you,

I don't care that you'll be mad at me afterwards,

But I mind that you're being so caring to me,

And I care why you care about me so much.

My feeling for you is not just only fading awat,

It's disappearing,

And I know that once it's gone,

It won't come back like last time.

IT WON'T.

And yesterday night,

You really made me feel happy,

But it's only a happiness that last only for a minute.

Not more than that.

And I always know that

We're More Than Friend, Less Than Lover..

We're Forever Like That, Isn't It?

Lim Zunren,

This name will be part of my life, my memory...

I can't forget this name,

Because you're my first love..

And if you don't know,

I had love you for TWO years already..

And I'm still loving you now,

But soon,

It'll all fade away....

Now..

It's your turn,

I had always love you,

Take good care of you,

But your betrayal last time,

Had left a big scar in my heart,

And I'm starting to get bored with you..

And the time that's left,

It's few more months,

I can't be sure,

Because things might get better,

But if things did not get better,

I'm sorry.

I'll put it to an end.

Bye.

GOD!!
I seriously need to study!!
I need to do well in my August test in order to score better in final exam!!
Or else,
My sister will kill me!
SHE WILL!

And Zunren taught me something..

"fear of the consequences"

I'm really afraid of what's going to happen to my well planned future if I don't do well in my exam!

I might not be able go to Oxford/Cambridge.

I most probably can't..

I'm in the last class of Science stream,

KNOW YOUR PLACE GAL!

Well,

I do know my place and my position!

I MUST further my study,

And I must achieve my ambition of being an artist..

I MUST..

I don't know why,

People look down on my family so much..

What we did?

We didn't kill your parents,

Or harm your children!

Or take your wealth!

We're always on OUR OWN,

And you can't stop picking on us..

Now that one of your PICKERS is sick,

You came and be nice to us,

Just to seek our help,

Because WE CAN HELP.

But let me tell you something..

MY FAMILY is a cruel family..

Why we became cruel?

Thanks to you all..

You want help?

Even if you're on your knees,

WE WON'T HELP.

I know it doesn't sound like me/us..

But that's us when it came to PICKERS like you all..

You look down on us,

I'll make you regret in future,

I promise myself,

I'll make ALL OF YOU REGRET!

It's not a revenge,

It's just a payback for what you had been doung to us.

PAYBACK!

I'm just mad about them out of a sudden..

Don't mind me :)

I'm fine..

I just need to score!

And DAMN!

I'm still YouTube-ing, Facebook-ing, Twitter-ing and Blogging here!

Bye bloggie..

I love you!

WHAT AM I?

What am I?
A very simple question but for those who're thoughtful,
They'll think CLEARLY before they answer.
Yes, we're human..

But what are us?
Are we just some normal human beings?
NO..
Every human is diferent no matter how much similarity they have.

So what am I?
Should I make a brief axplanation about me?
And let you guys judge me?
I guess I should..
CORRECTION!
No judging,
Just some opinion.

So,
I'm 16 this year,
Not a pretty one,
Not a slim one either,
Studies is just okay and it will be better if I really sit for hours and study.

My attitude?
I may look scary and angry all the time,
But once you know me,
You'll know that that's just my look,
I'm not like that!
I do smile,
I do laugh,
I do cry like you all!

I can be nice,
When you're nice to me,
I can be as evil as Lucifer os Satan,
If you make me mad.
That's me,
How you treat me,
Reflects on how I treat YOU.

My temper is bad especially when I just wake up,
NEVER EVER mess with me that time.
Well,
Any jokes is acceptable when I'm happy,
EXCEPT
For COCKROACH, AND LIGHT.
I really going to smack whoever's face if they dare do that to me!
And worse,
I'll be mad for 2 days..

*I never mad for 2 days before, maximum 1 day or maybe 1 and a half day. LOL!

What else?
I'm the kind who respect teacher,
If the teacher is really good,
I'll really respect him/her from my heart,
Although he/she may lose their temper once in a while.
If you're not so good as a teacher,
I'll still respect you..
I respect any teacher,
It's just the matter of how much I respect you.

I'm funny..
I mean I can be funny,
And I can be very, very funny.
Dirty minded?
DEFINITELY NOT ME!
Hahahaha,
Maybe #21
XDDD

Well,
That's all I guess..

=And I want to know who's that mysterious man in my dream,
Gonna dream about him later!

SAD?

Nothing special happened,

But I just feel sad out of a sudden!

And guess what I did to un-sad myself!

*what a great english user, UN-SAD!

I light up a candle,

And stare at it..

I play with it..

For almost 30 minutes,

I'm back to my normal self.. :D

I'm currently high-ing Shinee,

Except for Minho..

LOL!!

Taemin cute!!