I think I found someone who can share my thought all the time..
I mean I already have my best friends,
But it's not wrong to add one more, right?
He's Brandon BoyBoy~
LMAO..
It's the nickname that I made for him..
He call me Puisan GirlGirl..
LOL
But honestly,
I won't believe him that much for now,
Because disappointment comes from too much anticipation..
So...
Just be close friends with him first~
Before we can enter the best friend stage~
Well,
At least there's a guy for me to consult when I can't understand why HE(lzr) act/react like this..
MUAHAHAHA..

I had a dream few days ago,
That's I uploaded all my pictures..
Random pictures..
And I accidentally uploaded my birthday celebration pictures!!
I was freaking panic,
Because in the picture,
There's him in it~
LMAO,
It's just a dream..

And there's something that In just realised..
That's I hate myself..
I seriously hate myself for everything..
If I doesn't exist,
My sister can save so much money..
And the money that she saved can use for my younger sister's operation in future..
Her operation is extremely massive..
It's divided to 4 stages..
It means she needs to undergo 4 times of operation,
And if a very very small accident occur during the operation,
She'll be paralysed fpr the rest of her life..
The best Spine Operation with the highest success rate is in India,
But their treatment sucks,
Because they're so dirty~
So in the end,
Andrea decided to let Malaysia doctors to do it..

*Sigh~
Problems keep on coming..
What should I do if I can't hold on any longer?
My grandma is a pain in the ass,
SHE SUCKS!!!!!!!!
Gosh,
I seriously dislikes her now!
Gotta go out later to settle some financial stuff again~
How many times do I need to do it?
I just feel so bored!
And about Zunren..
I don't know what should I do..
Should I talk to him?
Or shouldn't I?
I had no idea!

I just feel so troubled now..
SO damn troubled!

ANOTHER AMAZING HAPPINESS

Well,
Today..
I was shocked when he sat in front of me..
As in the fourth row from the last,
I sit at the 2nd row..
So...
HAHAHAHAHA..
Honestly,
I was stunned while holding the stack of paper..
And Karyan said : What're you doing? Take your paper la..
Then only I came back to reality..
LOL

Today Karyan and I gone crazy..
Hahahaha,
We laughed and chatted non-stop..
And he still said I look quiet..
I mean today we're already very noisy..
But TO HIM, I'm not noisy enough..
LOL..
Actually,
It's not me who influenced him..
About the song addiction..
I think it's Yiwen,
Because that's a must-sing song for Yiwen everytime we go Kbox..
Anyway,
THANKS YIWEN!!!
Muahahaha!!

Although I don't feel that happy already..
But still,
It made me smile whenever I think about it!
And he want to talk to me!
I was like "WHAT?!!!!!!!"
In flesh some more!
Means face to face..
I scared I'll faint..
Should I use my old tactic to avoid this from happening?
Haiz,
I don't know..
Anyway,
Zunren!!
You did make my night a great night!! :D

I MISS YOU

Do you know that?
I miss you so badly LIM ZUNREN!!!
I want to chat with you,
I want to talk to you,
I want to look at you,
I want to hangout with you!!
I want to spend some time with you!!

But I don't think you'll feel the same for me..
You won't!
I really don't understand myself,
Why do I still love you when I know that it's a painful thing to do?
Why do I still have my eyes on you, worry about you, and want to know how are you doing all the time?
I can't sleep tonight because I'm missing you..
Everytime I close my eyes and try to sleep,
I'll somehow and somewhat think of you..
Now,
I'm typing all these out,
Expressing my feeling here..

I know we won't have a chance..
Not even the slightest chance..
I can predict the future..
If..
If, miracle happens..
And you say that you want to try..
I'll reject..
Because you ain't just a smart student,
You smart to the extent where you can get scholarship and further your study..
Just like your brother, he is at Perth now..
I don't want to be like this..
I don't want to love you anymore..
I'm suffering..
Suffering so much that whatever I do,
Whatever movie/drama I watch,
Whatever song I listen to,
It'll just make me thinks of you..

But I can't stop myself from loving you..
Tomorrow,
We're gonna meet again,
And my heart is going to flutter again..
And I'll continue my act..
That's the I-Dont-Like/Love-You-Anymore act

EXAM OF JYJ SHOWCASE??

Both also very important..
If I have to choose one,
I can't!
It's like asking me whether I love my handphone or my laptop more..
I hope I can go..
Even if I can't,
I want the ticket!!!
MUAHAHA..
You guys might think I'm crazy,
Since I did not go,
What's the point of having the ticket??
The point is at least I show them support by purchasing the ticket!
:D
Well,
My silly mode is on again,
MIND ME!!
LMAO

Sad thing is..
Puan Ng is leaving and she'll start teaching at a new school at Pusing..
It's SMK Pusing,
A mix school..
Although she did not teach me any subject,
But her kindness towards the student is so affectionate..
Puan Ng,
I'LL MISS YOU!!!

What else?
Oh!!
Enrolment had ended..
FInally!!
My chinese dance sucks.
I know I disappointed Vivian Cheah, Uma and Yenfong..
Sorry~~
I did my very best..
Actually my performance was supposed to be OKAY..
During the practice in the morn, before V-Formation,
It was REALLY OKAY..
Because we're the first performance and nervousness,
Everything was screwed!!
And yeah!!
I got a post...
Although I really wanted to be KK,
But they entrusted me the post Test Mistress means the want me to do my best to make sure future guides and rangers know things about guiding..
Not really disappointed..
And I'm glad that it was ShinWei was the one who chosen me to take her place instead of HuiYean..
It's just that I prefer ShinWei more,
And I'm okay with HuiYean too..
Just ShinWei is more to my choice..
Me and YeeLaine will gambateh!! :D

Exam is around the corner..
Gotta finish my science subjects ASAP,
So that my BM won't be affected even if I go to JYJ'S SHowcase..
Oh Micky,
I can't wait to see you!!!

I miss him so much :(
I shouldn't had skipped tuition last Friday..
But never mind!!
I'll meet him on Wednesday!!
Oh wait,
He didn't go to tuition on last Friday,
He went to KL..
LOL

I WANT IT TOO

I'm wishing for it too..
But it might be inconvenient for me..
After all,
Spaces is what everyone need..
Just let me think,
Would ya??
It's not an easy decision for me..

I don't know why,
But I just feel like texting Zunren and ask him to comfort me..
Or maybe better,
Gimme a hug XD
Hugging someone is what I always do when I get so so so frustrated..
After hugging,
I'll somewhat feel better..

2 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!

It's already two years!!!
Two years of what?
It has been two years since I confessed to you on the 22nd of September 2008..
Can't believe it huh?
I'm shocked too,
Why am I able to keep my feeling for him for so long?
I don't know..
I just love him so much..
I love him until I can do anything just for him.
Yes, ANYTHING except for what you are thinking right now(for pervert-minded ppl)

Happy Anniversary PhooiSan!! :D
Is it just a coincidence?
Two years ago,
It was Monday that I confessed to him,
And it was the BM tuition class..
Two years later,
It's Wednesday,
And it's English today..
AWW~!!
Tuition later!!
Can't wait to see him!!

Bye ppl,
Gotta eat my dinner!!
FREAKING HUNGRY!!!!

LMAO!!

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