Now this post is about you. Yes, you, YI WEN..

Like checking me out and get yourself emotionally disturbed again?

Go ahead, I won't stop you,

But you can't stop me either.

Because THIS IS MY BLOG!

You're 17!

And you needs your parents to come and solve your school matter?

Are you afraid that you'll lose if you confront me?

Well, you already LOST!

You all thought I'm so stupid that I don't know what's going on?!

Hello!! I'm Ng Phooi San.

You think you can cover your lies?

You're completely speechless when I asked you about it.

Weren't you confident and fierce enough when you said that you'll not CARE A THING anymore?

Weren't you confident and fierce when you said that I'm stubborn, I'm wrong, this and that?

THEN WHY ARE YOU SO SPEECHLESS WHEN I ASKED YOU:

1) Are YOU ALL boycotting the meeting

2) Did you all back stabbed my back

3) Did you all lied to me

Only these 3 questions. ONLY 3. I could have asked more, but you'll end up COMPLETELY SPEECHLESS AND WASTE MY CREDIT!

You're at your limit and you decided to quit?

I'm at my limit too!

Use your brain and think whether you're right or not!

Quitting without considering the effect?

You don't have the potential/quality to be a leader, or to be someone who leads.

Because small little things like this you also cannot handle!

Before you all back stabbed me, did you all think what's with my sudden change that make you all want to back stab me?

NO.

None of you tried to understand me.

None of you know what I'm going through.

Then what right do you have to back stab me as if I'm completely wrong?

Do you dare to say: I'M 100% RIGHT!

You might dare,

But is this the truth?

You and I know it very well.

You offended me first..

I called you yesterday and you said : Okay. Let's talk this calmly.

You're NOT CALM AT ALL.

I'm talking to you nicely,

YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S BEING SO DEFENSIVE.

Why?

Because you can't afford to lose to me.

Today we did talked.

Even before I start,

You're already MAD.

MAD GIRL, you're the one who said wanna talk things calmly.

You're THE ONE WHO'S NOT CALM.

And you framing me and blaming me?

Think for yourself.

If you still think you're right, go ahead.

You'll only be another stubborn-headed person in future.

Just try to open up and accept what people say.

I accepted your words. Why can't you?

Because you're even more stubborn than me.

Because you can't lose to me.

For you, your pride is very important.

How important could your pride be when you lost your common senses and humanity senses?

Think properly,

You need your parents to come to the school to SOLVE YOUR PROBLEM.

You're not only troubling them, of course your parents will not feel troubled.

But don't you feel bad?

It's YOUR OWN school's club's problem,

Not your parents.

You're not a baby anymore.

You're not a kid anymore.

Please, grow up!

You're so annoying with your mighty attitude.

With your annoyed face.

I hate looking at your face now.

I hate you now.

I HATE YOU.

You broke the friendship first, not me.

And I'm glad that you do it.

Because having a sadistic friend like you will make my days gloomy.

And having a extreme sensitive and easily influenced friend like you is a bad thing.

Both of you have the same attitude.

Childish.

HATE ME FOR THIS POST?

BELIEVE ME,

I HATE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING.

Because of your reckless actions.

With your support,

I hope I can do well...

Seriously? Do I Look That Stupid To You?

You're the world's most stupid person to ever lie to me.

It's your bad luck that I know the truth before you lie.

Puh-lease, go take more acting classes if you wanna compete this with me.

You can NEVER win over me

NEVER

Puan Mazyah is seriously the best counseling teacher!

She knows how to trap me.. LOL

If I were you,

I would have shut up and start studying.

But you did nothing besides than making noise.

If you don't want to study,

Then don't study,

But you don't any right to DISTURB ME!

Honestly,

With you all chit chatting in class, tuition, meetings, recess, etc.

Isn't it enough?!

Would you all just shut the fuck up?!

I'm doing the right thing at the right time,

But you thought I'm doing the wrong thing at the wrong time.

Why would you care?

Who are you to care?

And most important of all,

WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU TO BACK STAB ME AND TALK BEHIND MY BACK?

You think you're good?

Prove it to me.

Had just experienced the scariest pain in my life.

A foreign body went into my ear,

And it kept on going.

It hurts like hell.

Couldn't stop crying.

Went to the doctor.

He said the thing came out,

Before I came to see him..

=.=

When he put a drop of liquid into my ear,

I could still feel the thing moving

Hurts like hell when he used the tube thing to suck out the liquid.

"It seems that the insect injured your ear a bit." was what he told me after all those painful session.

He apply some antiseptic cream and gave me some medicine.

I thought I was going deaf...

Seriously, what am I thinking?

I have no idea..

I just want to quit Steven, not really because of $

But it's because of the noise, and the crowd.

I hope LWS can help me.

Seriously 100 for 2 subjects,

But it's 1-1..

Please God bless me!

Waking up every morning with massive headaches.

Trying not to skip school but I can't.

If only my grandma let me to attend school under such situation.

:(

Whatever it is,

I don't care.

Whatever I'm doing now,

Is only for my family,

Say me wrong,

Say me useless,

Say me idiot,

Whatever you say,

have NOTHING to do with me.

I'm stressssssssssssssssss

Why?

There's a lot of becauseS

If I can transfer school,

I will..

I want to.

Because I want a new life..

BRAND NEW LIFE.

Loooong time didn't text with you..

And god,

You're such a faker now...

With all your 'squeaky voice' msg, and all those fake smiles..

Why don't you go on a stage and tell the whole world how 'good' you are?

As if the world will look at you,

No one will care for you,

Because you're NOTHING.

You're nothing in my eyes,

Nothing in my heart.

You're just a trash..

You're once a treasure,

Many years ago..

But now,

You merely a trash that don't even worth a cent.

I just realised I missed my appoinments.

I'm do dead.

Injection...

Here I come :(((((

I did my best. Did you?

Oh, obviously you did not..

Poor thing, if you don't buck up now,

You'll be in trouble with me in the future..

Do you have any idea that you have already neglected your duty?

I shouldn't have let you in charge of that important thing.

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If I were asked:

"What will you wish for for your 17th birthday?"

I will not wish for a car, a dSLR, a new phone, or whatsoever.

I will not wish for a better relationship with you or him or whosoever.

I will not wish for a happy life or environment or something like that.

That's because....

Once I'm success, I'll buy myself anything I want using my very own salary.

Automatically, people who wants fame and popularity will come to me.

Happiness will come when I succeed in my life and I'll create a even better living environment.

I will only wish for one thing.

Please change those people into a better human being.

Why?

Because everything, and everyone, is being very annoying.

Well, not everyone.

Almost everyone.

I know I won't be standing too long.

I'll fall some day in May, I guess.

But let me tell you,

Before I fall,

I will make you all fall first.

Because you all need some lesson.

A punishment maybe?

I can't guarantee what might happen in the future?

Am I being an ass?

Well, because you started it first,

I'm letting you to have a taste of your own medicine.

I'm just merely reflecting what you did to me.

I'm mean?

No, I'm not mean,

YET.

When I'm completely changed,

Don't be surprised.

You won't see that coming.

You won't know when.

I won't know when.

Just pray for the best.

I might have to take the damage,

But you'll have to take in even more damage.

Because it all started from YOU.

I'm just a mirror.