MO.A Concert

Most Amazing Concert (M.Net)

Venue: MBPJ Stadium

Time:7:30p.m

Artists: Miss A, B1A4, f(x), Super Junior

Date: 3rd of Deember 2011

So, I found out about this concert about two weeks before d-day. And I got the tickets from someone I don't know. LOL, daring huh? I bought 2 Rockzone E tockets and end up no one was free to go with me. I really thanked God because at the very very last minute, there're 2 friends going with me!! :D They're Shasinee and Sabriena!

So, Shas and I took train to KL, while Sab's parents fetch her from Ipoh straight to the Stadium.

Shas and I were so damn excited when we were on the way. We chatted about it non-stop!! I couldn't stop talking about Suju and Shas couldn't stop talking about her CNU and B1A4!!

When Shas and I reached KL, my sister fetched us to have lunch. We started to do countdown. We will look at each other and said : -- hours to go

And we'll get so so so excited!!

However, Shas and I were late to the stadium..

We were supposed to reach at 5p.m., but we reached at 6!

And I also have to thank God and my sister for that because few minutes after we reached, we saw 2 white vans passed by and SIWON WAS INSIDE THE VAN!!

He was wearing a plain white tee..

Shas and I was already screaming and squealing and you-name-it!!

So, we waited at the FanClub Entrance to get it. While waiting, we went to buy some stuff such as light sticks(blue), files, etc.

Shas and I queued up 3 times. Funny? We were waiting for Sab so when it was almost our turn, we walked back and queue up again.

After Sab reached, and the nervousness begun.

I brought my sister's dSLR.

THANK GOD THAT GUY DIDN'T CHECKED IT!!

So, yeah, I managed to go in with my camera.. XD

Then we kinda rushed into our Rockzone E to get a good spot, and yeap!! We do get a good spot! XD

By the time I entered the stadium, I can see the blue ocean~

It's really beautiful, just like DBSKCassiopeia's red ocean.

I was so so so excited!! I kept on asking Shas what's the time because I know they'll start on time!

Then it starts!

But it was a local artist that I don't even know =.=

Then it was Miss A's turn.

Called CKM to let her listen to their live version.

Took quite a lot of pictures.

And Miss A pictures are some of the best pictures I have because during their performance,

There isn't much smoke..

Suzy is prettyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..

The other 3?

Erm, no comment..

Then it was B1A4!!

I wasn't that interested until I saw CNU, and Gongchan!!

I kinda detest new bands because in my mind, I'll always thought "How good can a group rookies sing?"

But I was proved wrong,

B1A4 can sing really very well.

Gongchan is super fair and handsome when I saw him in person!!

Jinyoung doesn't emit leader aura like Victoria, Leeteuk, Yunho, Onew, etc.

Instead, CNU looks more like a leader to me.

CNU is so tall!!!

Sandeul perspired like hell! Hahahaha, and Baro is the blonde guy.

He's kinda cute with his English.. CNU too!!

When they performed, I thought I dropped my jaw!

There's a part where Gongchan posed for quite some time..

He is really so cute and I was smiling about that fact.

I didn't realise that until I saw my own reflection on the camera.

I was... Smiling?

Shas was happy because I was enjoying B1A4's performance!!

I love their OK song so so so so so much!!

Even until now, Gongchan's face is still stuck in my mind.

And CNU's too!!

B1A4, you just recruited a new fan!!

Then it's f(x)

They're just as awesome as I expected! :D

Too bad Krystal wasn't there. :(

Amber looks like Donghae with the shades on..

Victoria is so slim and pretty and cute!!

Sulli looks a lot better in person..

Sulli is so cute~

I love the was Amber and Sulli interacts,

They're so playful~

Victoria really cute ehh..

The way she laughs and she even spoke mandarin!

She's cute.. Really..

And she has the charm.. As the leader, she's good~

Amber spoke to us in English asked us to guess their next song.

She said it starts with a 'P'.

We guessed it's Pinocchio and they pretended they didn't hear us.

We screamedddddd~ Hahaha, it was fun.

Amber's English is good~

LAST IS SUPER JUNIORRRR!!!

I'm sure I'm a ELF now!!!

ONLY ONE WORD CAN DESCRIBE SUJU'S PERFORMANCE : SUPERB!!!

Never thought that I'll enjoy that much and damn!!

I SWEAR KYUHYUN IS SO DAMN CUTE & FAIR!!

DONGHAE IS SO SO SO HANDSOME..HE EMITS SOME KIND OF CHARM~~

EUNHYUK IS HYPNOTIZING! HIS BLOND HAIR MAKES HIS JAWLINE EVEN MORE OBVIOUS! SEXIER~~ *faints*

YESUNG IS CUTEEEEEEEE

RYEOWOOK LOOKS A LOT BETTER IN REAL LIFE!

SIWON IS JUST AVERAGE.. *oops*

LEETEUK IS JUST LEETEUK &

SUNGMIN IS JUST SUNGMIN..

SHINDONG LOST LOTS OF WEIGHT....

Overall,

I NEVER regret going to the concert.

It brought me & Shas & Sab lots of fun!! :D

MY FIRST HIT

What does it mean?
It means today is the first time in my life,
I HIT ANOTHER CAR.
It was a Waja, and unlucky me,
The fella is a cop some more.
=.=

Details about how it happened?
Nah, my friend who was with me said the Waja fella is at fault,
But the Waja fella said it's my fault.
No point debate over such matter.
It happened, I was the one who hit him,
My fault.
End of story.

I was really guilty because,
First of all,
It's not my car,
Secondly,
I'm fetching my friend,
And I had give a lot of trouble to my brother.
And also my uncle.
I was glad that they didn't blame me for it.
They said "It's your first time, don't worry.. It's very usual.."
Uncle Arther said "The car is not that important. The most important thing is you're not hurt"
My friend said "Don't worry about me. I'm worry about you."

I was really glad that they still give me support,
I AM really thankful to them, and to God for sending them to help me.
Sometimes,
A small action,
A simple word,
Can touch the deepest of my heart.

Honestly,
I was afraid.
I was so scared.
Not scared of the consequences for hitting that fella's car,
But scared for troubling the people around me.
I was so scared that they might leave me.
I admit it,
I really felt it at that moment.
I prayed.
I prayed to God to help me, help my brother, help everyone.
I don't know whether He heard it or not,
But I did feel better,
At least,
I had stop crying in the car.

I am the biggest failure of the family,
At such a young age,
I already hit a car,
A cop's car (not the white Waja, just a normal silver Waja)
At some point,
I really felt so down,
I'm so disappointed with myself.
How can I not able to brake faster?
How can I not avoid that?

I know something is going wrong today.
I have that weird feeling.
When the paper finished,
I thought it was all my imagination,
But I was proved wrong.
When I thought it was over,
It begins.

I don't know what had I learned from this lesson.
I really don't.
Drive carefully?
I'm always careful.
Sometimes, the victim can be the cause of the accident,
The victim(cop) is definitely the cause of this accident.
If only he didn't e-brake,
I wouldn't have hit him hard.
So hard.
His whole bumper was... Dented.
Right at the middle,
The moment my car finally stop,
My hands were already shaking.
But I was somehow calm inside,
Because I'm not alone,
I can't freak out when my friend is beside me,
I am the driver,
I must be stronger,
At least I do look so,
Until I called my uncle and told him.

I managed to hold on,
Until I reached home.
Now,
I'm still trembling in fear,
My heart still beats fast,
My eyes feel so tired from all those 'pouring out' session.
I wish..
I wish everything will be well.

*Preparing.. Hairstylist was Evelyn, while the make-up was done by Eve*

Grad was fun, of course.

But the price that I had to pay for the fun was too much.

my iPhone was stolen.

It's not that I complain about it because it a iPhone,

It's because of the memories I had inside...

All of it means so so so much to me..

I want it back so badly.

I couldn't sleep well since Friday night because I couldn't stop thinking about the phone.

I WANT IT BACK SO FCUKING BADLY!!

Those memories that I treasure so much,

Just vanished in a second..

It reminds me of how my mother vanished from my life.

It was unbelievable. It was painful.

No matter how much I suffered,

The pain never ends,

From time the time,

I can still feel the heaviness on my chest,

The burden and stress..

I'm sick of people who told me they understand what I'm going through.

YOU.DON'T.UNDERSTAND.AT.ALL.

Apparently, no one really has the heart to dive into the ocean and save me from drowning.

They'll just stand there and celebrate the moment when I'm struggling to survive, and about to die.

Honestly, who cares?

Who ever care for me?

I was only there when you needed my help.

I was only there because no one was there for you.

I was only there when you realised that you can take me for granted.

When did you ever appreciate my presence and not treat me like a toy?

When WILL you treat me as a true friend?

Now that I think of it,

I was really a fool,

I became someone else just to be in your list.

I became someone to please you.

I became someone else because you want me to.

Now,

Why would I continue to fulfill your request when you doesn't worth it, at all?!

I will be who I am supposed to be.

You can't understand what I'm thinking?

ASK!

You don't feel like want to care about me?

THEN DON'T!

Pretending to care for me is very pathetic.

I don't need your sympathy.

I'm in a fcuking fugly mood these days so I advice you not to mess with me.

I don't want to burn anyone around me because of my anger.

To me, everything about it is a burden.

When I was standing before the gate,

I was actually hesitating whether to go out or not.

I WAS HESITATING!

It was a very heavy burden.

In fact,

It's the only thing I wanna get rid.

But I couldn't..

All I need is some sleeping pills.

I've never experience such terrible insomnia before!

Trial is OVER,

Everything should go back to how it was.

The medicine that Krishnan gave me doesn't affect my sleep time,

That's what he told me.

But I couldn't sleep AT ALL.

I'll stay awake until 5-6a.m,

Then when it's about time for my alarm clock to go off,

I fell asleep.

I was like a corpse,

No matter how my grandma shake me, call me,

I wouldn't respond.

After I wake up,

I remember nothing about her trying to wake me up.

I want to go to school.

In a fresh and healthy state of course.

But all I can do now is stay at home and suffer and suffer.

Something is really wrong,

I've to go for a full body check-up soon,

But when?

How?

Will my sister bring me to a hospital to do check-up?

Pfft,

She won't care.

She'll say it's all my imagination!

I guess my broken heart is not healed yet.

It takes time.. A long long time.

7th of Aug was the day I started to forget about you.

And yesterday was the day I had shed my tears because of you for the last time.

Very last time.

Well, let's say it's the tear of farewell.

It was only 30 minutes of shedding.

But it was more than enough how hard it is for me to let go,

And how much I needed you and how much I love you.

Today, is 17th of Aug.

My new day, new life starts here.

I can't guarantee that I will not miss you,

But I can guarantee that I'm letting it go.

It was a beautiful thing.

A very well painted painting you did to me.

To my life.

Thanks you M/Z.

I'll always pray for you..

Goodbye, Z.