TIME?

You might thought I'll spend my time thinking about it..

Well,

You want a honest answer from me?

Yes, I did spent time on it..

But it's only the few minutes before I fall asleep.

I don't have the need to clear my mind..

Because I'm concious of what I'm doing.

And I don't regret.

Honestly,

Why should I spend time on this matter?

For me,

It's not a big matter at all,

Because whether you want to start it all over again or remain,

Or end it,

I don't care and mind..

My decision and answer will be the same..

That is I can't really trust you anymore,

But you're still in the top list..

That's all I can say..



People say that the most important in any relationship is trust..

I'm sorry that I don't trust you anymore..

Because,

You're the very first person who did this to me..

I might did it to you before and you might be okay with it,

But I'm sorry,

I'm not the lenient type..

I can forgive but as for forget,

Impossible....

You say that you're proud for being that place until it ENDED..

F.Y.I,

I never say that it had ended..

You're the one who said so.

Until now,

You're still in that position..

But I had deleted your number in my list of sending texts..

Since you asked me to not to reply you/text you..

Because you're out of words?

Hahaha,

You're out of words and you ain't mad?

Put it any way you like,

But for me,

You're doing it like that because my words hurted you..

Am I wrong?

That word does hurt a lot..

Some time ago,

A person said the same thing to me..

"I don't believe you anymore"

And those words totally break my heart..

These words did not came from a friend,

It's someone I love..

Someone who thought giving me stress is the best....



I don't know how you feel now,

But I don't know how I feel now either..

I'm feelingless?

I don't know..

I just feel nothing.

As if this thing is not important..

Maybe I need you to talk to again?

The second after it happened,

I was at the edge of crying,

I was totally filled with sadness..

I did not text or even talk to anyone..

Instead,

I off my handphone..

I just want a moment to rest..

You're tired?

I'm tired also..

You think I want this?

I never want this,

But it had happened,

So let it be..

If it's a wound that can heal by itself,

It will heal,

If it's a wound that the cut was too deep,

Then the wound might take a very long time to heal,

Or it won't completely heal,

Or the worst,

It won't heal....

Well,

Maybe it'll heal,

But it'll left me a very ugly scar..



What am I crapping up there?

I don't know..

*Sigh...

I finally removed the manicure that I did last week...

I replaced it with another red color...

I'm just so into red these days..

The color is pretty satisfying